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Chapter 4- the melt down

Maria's P.O.V.

I know Thomas saw my bandage. I could see the look in his eyes, he needs talk to me. All this talking is gonna involve him yelling at me.

He held my hand though. And mouthed I love you. That was the first time he's said I love you since he saved me.

I sit down in my chair in the back of Mrs. Ewing's room. I wait patiently for Stella to come, in the meantime I chat with Bell. I don't know why I still talk to Bell. She was one of the ones who told me to die and to cut. She was one of the ones that caused Kink and Stinger. One who caused Duke and TD.

Stella walks in and I get up and walk over to her. She's knows I need to talk to her. Usually we go down to Ms. Old but today I don't want to tell her stuff. Just Stella.

I ask her, "Can we talk later?"

She looks up and gets the same look in her eyes that Thomas did, she knows. "Sure, we can talk in band," she says.

"Thank you," I tell her and walk away back to my seat. I sit back down quietly and think about how I'm gonna tell Stella about the voices.

3rd period: Band

I walk down to band silently and all alone. In front of me is Bell and all her friends. Behind me is Allen and his friends. I can hear Allen and his friends talking about me.

"She's such a slut," whispers Allen to Matt, a guy who used to like me.

Matt laughs and says, "Why are you talking so quiet? She's a blonde, she won't know we are talking about her."

"You two are idiots," Alex says to Allen. Alex is Allen's girlfriend who hates me more then anyone. This is only because Allen told her lies about me and my life.

Allen and Matt both laugh at this. Allen then kisses Alex's head. I walk faster trying to get away from them. Behind me I hear Allen call out, "Where you going bitch? Trying to get to band so you can flirt hoe?"

Their whole group laughs at this. I hold back tears and hurry into the band room. Stella can see I'm upset. She walks over to me and hugs me and I start to cry.

"What's wrong?" she asks me.

I sigh and continue to cry. I whisper, "Its a long story."

"Do we need to go down to Ms. Old?" she asks me letting me go from the hug.

"No," I say and Lynn walks over to us. She notices I crying. She pulls me in for a hug too.

Lynn and I are close like me and Stella, but Stella and I have more classes together. Though I love then both like sisters and tell them everything.

I quietly say to them, "Do you think Mr. Chad would let us go on the stage an talk?"

"We can ask," Lynn says and walks over to his desk and asks. I can see her saying stuff to him and then I see the look in his eyes everyone gets when they see I'm crying.

Lynn walks back over to us and says, "We can go on the stage and talk for as long as we want."

I sigh a sigh of relief. I take a quick glance over at Thomas. He looks me in the eyes. He still has that look in his eyes. For now I just wanna talk to Stella and Lynn.

We walk out of the band room and out onto the stage. We grab some chairs and sit in a circle. Lynn pulls some pretzels outta her bag and offers me one. I shake my head in a no and sigh.

"Okay so what do we need to talk about?" Stella asks me.

"A lot," I whisper in response.

Lynn and Stella look at each other. I pull up the sleeves of my sweatshirt. they see the bandages.