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Chapter 3- the bandages

Maria's P.O.V.

Link and Stinger finally left. I spent an hour cutting trying to get them to go away. There's more blood stains on the carpet now and the word slut and written on the wall in blood. Kink and Stinger kept telling me to do that so of course I did. The moment I did they left.

My wrists won't stop bleeding. I grab a towel from the bathroom and head down to Jess's room. I know he's gonna be mad but he knows how to help.

I knock slowly on the door wincing in pain from my stinging, bleeding wrists. He answers right away and pulls me into a tight hug not caring about the blood getting on his clothes. I wrap the towel tighter around my wrists, but the blood still won't stop. I sit down in Jess's computer chair and whisper, "I'm sorry."

"Maria you know better," Jess said back.

I start to cry again, "Jess I'm sorry, you don't understand."

Jess gives me a look and I can tell I need to shut up, so I do. He gently unwraps the towel from my wrist and sighs when he sees all the cuts. I look away and cry, he's disappointed in me I can tell. Jess places the towel on my lap and already bloody jeans. He lays my arms down on it and looks up at me. I look down at him and cry more, I can see the disappointment in his eyes.

He stands up and walks to his bathroom. I cry more and more knowing that he's disappointed in me. Jess comes back out of the bathroom with medical bandages. He sits back down in front of me and turns my arm over so my cuts are facing up. Jess sighs once more and starts to wrap my wrist. I wince in pain as he wraps the bandage tight around my wrist.

"Hey I'm not mad Ria," Jess says. He's been calling me Ria more and more since I've been so upset and depressed lately.

"I love you," I whisper to him. Jess has been there for me ever since my first heart break.

He smiles and whispers back, "I love you too Ria."

Jess finishes wrapping my wrists and pulls me in for another hug. I cry into his shoulder hoping none of the voices come back tonight. He walks me back to my room and sits me down on my bed and looks into my eyes.

"Remember, Maria you're always wanted and loved," he says and leaves my room.

Thomas' P.O.V.

Maria hasn't texted me in five hours. I'm starting to worry. Usually it only takes her twenty minutes to eat dinner and then she comes right back. Not tonight.

It's almost midnight and I'm starting to get tired. I don't want to go to bed in case she texts me. I lay down in bed my phone in hand and fall acts asleep.

7:00 the next morning

I check my phone. I can't believe I fell asleep last night. I should've stayed up. I have five texts from Maria.

Maria: hey can I talk to you?

Maria: Thomas this is kinda important

Maria: you awake??

Maria: meet me at my locker tomorrow morning

Maria: I gotta talk to you about something

I knew she was gonna text me. She is probably mad now. Ughhhh I feel terrible. All I got to do now is sit and wait for the bell so I can wait for her at her locker.

I wonder over to Maria's friend, Bell. She's sitting at a table with all her friends. I sit down by her and start a conversation trying to get my mind off of Maria until the bell rings.

It's so hard not to think about Maria. I'm so worried about her. Our relationship hasn't been the same since that day, the day I cut her down.

I was texting Maria one night, the night of the break up. She was crying and cutting. I was skyping her watching everything. She was a mess but still beautiful.

I saw her get the rope. She kept saying she was going to kill herself. I tried to stop her, but it didn't work.

I watched her set up the rope and grab the chair. Watched her stick her head through the hole. And that's when I hung up. I grabbed my phone and ran. I ran to her house.

Jess answered the door when I got there. I just ran by him. I sprinted up their stairs and ran straight for Maria's bedroom, luckily it was unlocked.

I opened the door as fast as I can. And there I see her, Maria is hanging from the ceiling fan. I scream for Jess and grab the knife from the floor. I cut her down and unwrap the rope from her neck.

I stay as calm as I can, but I start to cry. Jess finally enters the room, he screams. I turn around and tell him to shut up. I start to do CPR on Maria.

She starts to breathe, I can feel her breaths against my face as I continue the CPR. Her breaths are short and weak, not strong enough for her to breathe on her own. I continue the CPR on her. Jess starts to cry; he grabs his phone and calls the ambulance.

Maria's breathing starts to get stronger. I start to have hope that she'll be okay. Jess said the ambulance was on its way.

I continue the CPR, Maria starts to breathe on her own now. I saved her. She wakes up. She opens her eyes and looks up at me and whispers, "I love you."

I look down happy tears now and whisper, "I love you too."

Finally, the bell rings. I stand up and walk as fast as I can to Maria's locker. I stand there waiting with Bell. Bell doesn't know about everything Maria has gone through, only Stella. I try hard not to cry as I see Maria walking down the hallway. She has on a Disney sweatshirt that's a bit too big for her and her jeans with the hole in the one knee.

Maria walks up to me and hugs me. This never happens, only on days when something awful happens. I look into her eyes and I know something happened.

I hug her back and she opens her locker. I stand there looking at her and then I see it the hint on a bandaid poking out from under her sweatshirt.

She pulls her sleeve down and whispers, "Ill tell you later."

I look at her and grab her hand. She winces. She cut I know she did. I need to get us somewhere where we can talk.

Maria puts her stuff in her locker and looks at me. I look back at her I mouth, " I love you," to her.

She mouths back, " I love you too," and walks into her classroom.

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Author's note: just typing this chapter made me cry.

"Sometimes the right path is not the easiest."

-Pocahontas

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