My Story

April 30,2014. 10:42 pm

I feel sad right now

And I don't know why.

Except I do.

But I am alone with my sadness

All alone this time.

My texts, a quiet plea for help, are ignored.

Phone calls, screaming for comfort

"Your call has been forwarded to an automated voice message system..."

I'm running on 5 hours of sleep, but I'm not tired

I'd rather stay up all night

Sitting here in the darkness

My heart pounding and chest hurting

And I can't breathe

I want to run scream jump fly

I hate this place

I hate my life

I hate being a foster child

I want to run away from this place

I'm just too fucking wimp to do it

I want to climb out the window and get on a bus

Get some drugs to make it feel better

Crash a car maybe

Make out with someone

I want to live want this endless cycle of pain to stop

Someone something make it go away

Give me an escape from reality