The Beautiful Motto of Whatever [Normila]

Chapter 3

Secret P.O.V. 1: 

I had my suspicions before, now I'm not sure. Judging by the way Camila's been crooning over Normani anytime she's within a one mile radius, I'm pretty certain Camila likes Normani. And if she does then she really does if you know what I mean. However, it is Camila we're talking about, she tends to unintentionally flirt with everyone I mean just the other day she told me my shorts complemented my body. I swear she was staring at my legs for a full two minutes. They've been flirting as long as I've known them but it's even more now. After a concert one night I went to go check on Normani and see if she finally wanted to try the Silk in the fridge. Then I found her in Normani's bunk spooning Normani... I mean I don't know. I left before she could see me, but I couldn't stop myself from giggling, it was cute and for once I didn't hear Camila get up all throughout the night like she usually did. I think I'll wait it out a bit in till I see something more substantial. Plus I don't even know if Normani likes Camila back, or even likes girls. After the entire drama with Arin she sort of shut herself off from all advances and has been turning down guys left and right. My biggest fear is that Arin might have broken her ability to trust, and if Camila were ever able to have a chance, this would prevent it. If I could just be certain then I'll get them together, they really complement each other. Plus it would be cute and almost like a real life fairy tale, aww I love fairy tales. 

Normani's P.O.V:

Being in this group is beyond my wildest imaginations. Since I've been home schooled I've only ever formed close relationships with those in my club teams, like dance, gymnastics and at the pageants. It took me a while to adjust to all the other girls, I mean we're all so different, yet so similar. I'm so use to being reserved and keeping my best foot forward that when I fail to meet my expectations it feels like it literally took a part of me. These girls are slowly teaching me how to let go and realize that life doesn't always have to be so serious, I don't always have to be as poise as a pageant queen all the time. Camila especially has taught me that, she is so free and herself all the time sometimes even to a fault, but she doesn't care even then and I admire her for that. We've been spending more and more time together and I think we're becoming almost like best friends I mean I've told her more about myself than I've told anyone else in the group thus far and it takes me a while to open up to anyone. The best thing had to be our conversation when she first told me of the motto of whatever. How I should just do whatever feels natural and be myself, because that's when I'm my best self. That I'm perfect in my flaws and the world shouldn't have to miss out on the real me that everyone in the crew and she gets to see. I actually cried when she told me that, it was one of the most beautiful things anyone has ever said to me despite it being a bit random, it was while we we're recording our EP after Xfactor in the studio. She and the other girls had told me things like that prior to then but they didn't really stick. Their words of encouragement we're like henna, they appeared permanent to a casual passerby but in their nature they were only temporary. And before long I would need more words on encouragement to bring me back to my full potential. Camila's words that day were like a permanent tattoo, despite the showers of disappointment, the weather of bad luck, or tides of self-doubt they were still there, like it or not etched into my self-esteem. Maybe it was the way she spoke, with such passion and honesty, that finally broke my subconscious resolve, I'm really not sure how but it worked. So with each passing day I find myself opening up more and more to the girls, the crew, and in interviews saying what was on my mind even if it might sound dumb. Sometimes I find myself wanting to crawl back into my former shell, the posh and reserved one I always keep on hand but then I look at Camila who is a permanent reminder of the that beautiful motto of whatever, a tattoo, and think better of it. In a way I think it helps her too, she exerts herself so much each and every day and it can get tiring, I think when she sees me being myself it brings her some form of new found energy... I don't know it sounds kind of dumb thinking about it, but I really think it does. It's also brought me more resolve about myself, after the whole Arin debacle, when I found out he had been talking to two other girls while dating me, I started to lose my self-confidence. I would put on a mask and be the pageant queen and winner everyone knew me as, but on the inside I was breaking down and I was so scarred it would change me forever. I started to lose trust, not just people but myself as well; I didn't trust my talent or my potential. Luckily, Camila's taught me that just because someone desires you, it does not mean they value you. And that has to be one of the best pieces of advice I've learned thus far.