The Beautiful Motto of Whatever [Normila]

Chapter 5

+I updated Chapter 4 with Part 2 so if you haven't read it yet make sure to do so before reading this one, enjoy!

Lauren's P.O.V:

I managed to fix things with Normani and we're better than ever now. After she walked in on Camila and I in the bathroom it put things in perspective for me. It took me almost losing the opportunity to be with her to realize how important she is to me and I won't risk that ever again. When she walked in and I saw the smile on her face fall it felt like my world was falling apart. I've been interested in Normani for quite sometime now, since Xfactor started, and have been slowly coaxing her since. I don't really know what I want us to be but I do know I like to kiss her and for a while that was fine enough but now I'm not so sure. I actually meant to confront Camilia that day and lightly tell her to back off of Normani, they've been getting close lately and I know Camila doesn't like her but she has a wondering eye so I figured it wouldn't hurt to make sure. I guess I got lost in my old emotions and I almost felt how I did when we first meet, when Normani was off flirting with Arin and I would cuddle to Camila wishing I could have both her and Normani. I still remember the first time we kissed and how it felt so right. It was while we were recording our EP after Xfactor while we were in our apartment. Normani and I decided to room together much to the surprise of everybody outside of our group. We were sitting on the couch laughing at one of the many reality shows she's always watching and it got serious all of a sudden and she looked so beautiful so I leaned in and kissed her. The instant are mouths connected it was intoxicating, she was still, frozen lips shut tight in surprise. I would have pulled back but I was too caught up in her and after a few moments she responded back. We kissed for a few moments and she pulled away first, I panicked so I got up and walked to the kitchen asking her if she wanted me to make any popcorn. I could feel her confusion through the awkward pause before she answered and the tone in her voice. We left it alone after that in till the next time I kissed her after a concert, she was wearing a skirt that night and I couldn't control my eyes as I watched her realize her inner diva. Since then I've been trying to talk to her alone, just the two of us and we're getting even closer. I almost kissed her the night I lied to her before Camila walked in... Normani and I have this undeniable connection and despite our differences we're very much alike. The best day was in Seattle, that whole day felt like a dream, like we had the possiblity to be a couple. If I hadn't kissed Normani I would easily say she's my best friend but she's more than that now. The same goes for Camila and Dinah, they'e practically joined at the hip... but anyway I might be ready to take the next step with Normani if she'd let me. I feel bad for lying to her about Camila and I in the restroom but it was for the best, if she knew what really happened she would shut me out. Staying with Normani has really allowed me to know who she is and Normani's walls are tall and guarded. After making her breakfast every morning with bacon of coarse, she started to create a gate to her wall and eventually let me in. The only thing is that I'm still a visitor and haven't been allowed to stay, a question is do I want to stay? After the mini panic attack I had next to Camila on that tile floor that day, I think the answer is yes. I want to try things with Normani, no more pretend meaningless kisses, no more confusing labels, no more convincing myself that I don't feel anything its time that I face the truth. Maybe then I'll be more happy. 

Normani's P.O.V:

My mind feels like it never stops, everything is going at full speed and I'm just trying to keep up. Lauren and I have been close lately and if I were to be completely honest we've been reallyy close like we've kissed... a couple of times. The first time I was completely blown away, but then I found myself kissing her back, and to tell the truth I liked it.  We never really talked about it so it just left my mind, that is n till we kissed again after a concert and Lauren said that's something friends do. I may have been home-schooled but I'm  not that naive. But secretly I was grateful cause I don't know how I feel about Lauren, girls... or Camila. The situation would be enough on its own to handle if Camila were not involved in it. I think Camila likes me. If it weren't for the looks she gives me sometimes I would think I was crazy, but sometimes she looks at me as if... And then that day in Seattle on the Needle, it was magical. I would swear I was in a movie, I know its terrible but I have to say it was like I was in one of those romantic movies and she kissed me goodnight. Lauren that day as well too, the entire day we milled around the city hand and hand with everyone I felt almost like a couple with her. The worst day though had to be when I saw Camila and Lauren in the bathroom, I ran and holed myself in the back of the tour bus afterwards. Lauren cam right behind me soon after and came to sit with me on the couch. After trying to cuddle and pouting to get my attention I finally let her in not able to stay mad at her and she explained what they were really doing, though I'm not sure if I really believe her. I'm not sure... maybe Lauren's right, maybe I don't know how friendships work and I'm reading too much into these situations. I'm just gong to do what I am here for and that is to sing and preform in this amazing group, everything else is a distraction. The only thing I fear is that these "distractions" will become too great to ignore.