The Beautiful Motto of Whatever [Normila]

Chapter 11 - 11:11 Make A Wish

+I've had parts of this chapter written from the beginning when I first started this fic, so I hope it all makes sense since I had to piece it all together. That's also the reason why it's so long, this fic became much more than I ever intented. Thanks ya'll so much for reading along this whole time can't believe it's past 60 pages already. I never even thought anyone would read it, let alone like my writing lol. Enjoy :)

+Continued from last chapter...

Camila's P.O.V:

I blush when looking around at the crowd till my eyes fall onto Normani's, her eyes a vibrant red with unshed tear, yet still as beautiful as ever. Her eyes see to be beckoning me as she turns and walks a little ways from the group. I don't know whether or not to follow her since my heart is saying yes but my mind is screaming no, I'm giving up on the chance of an 'us' so what's the point. I turn to Dinah and give her a look before she nods while gesturing for me to follow. I get up quickly and hand the guitar to her before briskly making my way towards the brunette with the honey highlights who is still walking further from the group till we're side by side. We walk in till we are out of earshot and I stop as soon as she does before meeting her eyes once she turns to look at me. In them I see a look hurt and pain I've only seen once before and that was after her breakup with Arin. I don't know whether to hug her as tightly as possible or run so I stay still and wait for her to say something, anything really. I watch as her face breaks down and I can't take it anymore so I tug her arms gently from around her body and pull her into a hug. The tears are pouring freely down her face but otherwise she's quiet as silent sobs wrack throughout her body. We stay like that for a while, me rubbing her back soothingly as we sway a little and I'm so grateful that most of the people from the video shoot went back inside. I have a cool and supportive demeanor but on the inside I'm torn, if I'm trying to make any effort to get over my feelings for Normani this is a bad start. I need to know where we stand so I can make a choice to either move on or stay.

"Normani, Mani Bear please look at me" I say while lifting her head off my now tear ridden shoulder, trying to meet her eyes. I almost forget what I'm about to say as her big brown eyes meet mine, glowing under the light of the afternoon sun, taking my breathe away. "Normani, I know this might not be the best time and I know I promised I would wait, I am. But I need to know where we stand cause I can only wait for so long" I say gently while holding onto her shoulders. She looks like she's about to say something but her face turns into a conflicted expression before she looks away from me seemingly in deep thought. I wait nervously biting my lips in anticipation, when she looks back at me silently and gently removes my hands from her shoulders I sigh internally building my walls up. I step back from her as my composure breaks cause I can no longer hide what I'm feeling, I'm hurt. 

"Why don't you just tell me the truth, it would be some much better then giving me a false sense of hope. People aren't disposable Mani, I have feelings. It's okay if you don't like me but don't pretend that you do!" I say frustrated, beyond done with the drama. 

"Mila I would have loved to have given you a chance... I meant it when I said I liked our kiss..." she says in sorrow and I know my face is reflecting the pained feeling I have right now as I wait for her next words." Lauren lied to me, Arin lied to me and those two while they did hurt, I can get over them. It was you lying to me that hurt me the most though, the worst part is that when I needed someone to hold me together the only and first person I could think of was you" I'm confused by her words till I remember Lauren. Lauren lying to Normani and me going along with it when she told me. "I just don't know what to think now... I'm not mad that you didn't tell me, you didn't owe it to me, but I'm disappointed. Both you and Lauren were messing around my back, do you know how that feels... to have two people you really care about, that say the care about you too, hurt you" her voice is straining between a whisper and a shout, I look towards the ground not knowing what to say, Lauren must have told her everything.