grateful ❥ choi youngjae

xxvii

i was slightly sobbing for about 5 minutes, and [name] was comforting me. as she's embracing me, i started to hug her back.

i needed someone.

i needed someone to comfort me.

"there, youngjae." she said to me as she's still stroking my hair, and she started to hug me tighter. "if you can't calm down, just let it all out. i'm right here."

my hyungs are away for now. yugyeom and kunpimook are possibly playing video games. usually they have it at a high volume.

but after hearing [name]'s words..my heart started to hurt even more. i never realized how much i wanted to cry.

even when i'm happy around her, i'm still devastated about eunyoung.

i have no other choice, but to cry harder.

[name]'s heartbeat immediately rose, and i can feel her trembling. i think that she started to cry as well.

she's probably feeling so bad for me.

"[name], you won't leave me right? i just—" i straightforwardly told her, in a loud voice because of how i'm feeling.

"i'm scared! i'm so terrified." i then soften at the last sentence i said to her; and i started to shake.

"i'm not leaving you. but why exactly are you—"

"i like you, [name]. i know it's been two weeks but..you make me feel nervous, you're so nice to me, your smile is so beautiful, you're willing to even help me study, everything. but i'm scared. what if you leave me? what if you don't like me back—"

"youngjae, whatever the reason why eunyoung cheated on you, i can't think of a reason of what you have done wrong. even when we've known each other for about 2-3 weeks." she quietly said to me.

after what she said, i calmed down once again, and soon, i began to stop. although i was still sniffling, i still had tears running through my cheeks.

"and..i like you too. and i would love to take things slowly. you and jinyoung actually took care of me and took me home on our first meet. your smile—i just..get nervous. i thought you didn't like me because i'm foreign or because we just met.." she added.

she likes me back?

..did i hear that right?

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a terrible yet lovely chapter.