Friendship, Love or Nothing ➸ j.t

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~ 10th of July aka Perrie's birthday ~

~ Jade ~

"Happy birthday baba!" I said, handing her the present I just went out a brought. Yes, I forgot to buy one before I left America so I had to go out for a couple of hours before and buy her a birthday present. I'm a bad girlfriend, I know, but I'll blame it on jetlag and I know she'll love it. It's a charm bracelet with a couple of charms on it already. A heart to represent me, a music note and a family one for Jonnie and Debbie.

Perrie grinned and took the present. She lead me inside and put the present on the couch, before pulling me into a big bear hug.

"I missed you, Jadey," she murmured into my shirt. She sounded like she was about to cry. I pulled away and saw that she was crying. My heart melted and I wiped away the tears that fell.

"Pez, why are you crying?" I asked.

"I'm just so happy you're here. I haven't seen you in months and I missed you like crazy," Perrie choked. My heart melted more.

"I missed you too," I said and pulled her in for a hug again. We stood there hugging in her living room until I pulled away to kiss her.

"I missed your kisses," she murmured against my lips, just as the doorbell rang. She left to get it and I took the time to look around. She had moved all the furniture to the sides of the room to make a dance floor and a small DJ set was in the corner. There were cool lights in the top corners of the room, and when it's dark enough, they'll flash cool colours and give the room a club-type feel. I was really excited.

Perrie came back in the room with Jesy and Leigh-Anne, their boyfriends in tow.

"Hiya guys!" I said. Perrie introduced my to the boys; both Jordan by the way. We all sat around the living room, waiting for the rest of her guests.

~*~

Perrie and I had been dancing for hours and now we were outside, making the rounds and talking to all her quests. The backyard had been completely transformed. The old tree Perrie and I used to play in was stringed with fairy lights. A few amps had been dragged outside and the music from inside was playing out through them. It was perfect.

"I'm just going toilet!" I shouted to Perrie over the music. She nodded and I handed her my drink. I made my way through the crowd of people and up the stairs to the bathroom. I did my business and started down the stairs, back to Perrie, when Sam stopped me.

"Hey Jade," he said. I smiled. I hadn't seen him in ages,

"Hey Sam. How are you?"

"Good. I haven't seen you in a long time," he said.

"Yeah well I haven't been here in ages. I've been at school," I replied.

"Oh yeah. Hey, can I talk to you for a second?"

"Um, we're talking right now, aren't we?" I said, confused.

"I meant, in private," Sam said.

"Uh, sure." He pulled me into Perrie's bedroom.

"Jade," he said. "Before anything happens with you and Perrie, I just want to tell you that," he paused, rubbing the back of his neck. "That I really like you. Like, really, really like you."

I was shocked. I mean, I always thought of Sam as one of my good mates. And yeah, he was really good looking and nice and very, very sexy. I mean, I've seen him with his top off and pwoar! That's one sexy body. I like him too, but I'm with Perrie. I can't do that to her. I can't hurt her like that. I do like Sam. He's a nice guy. I just don't know.

"It's okay if you don't feel the same. Just please don't tell Perrie!"

"Sam, I - I," I stammered. "Sam, you've got a girlfriend. And so do I!"

"Yeah, I know. But they don't have to know," Sam said.

"But that'll hurt them and I don't want to hurt Perrie." He bit his lip and drove me crazy. He was soooo damn hot.

"Look, Jade. I really want to be with you. You drive me crazy. And if being with you means sneaking around behind Perrie and Cecelia's back, then I'll do it."

"Oh Sam. As much as I want to, I can't. I can't hurt Perrie like that. I couldn't do it to her," I said. Sam's face fell.

"Okay. I understand," he said. He looked so sad.

"But I don't think one kiss could do any harm," I added. His face lit up again.

"Nah," he said and took a step towards me, before crashing his lips to mine. They weren't Perrie's but they felt just as good and let off just as much fireworks in my brain as Perrie did. I really think we shouldn't have kissed each other because after that, we couldn't keep our hands off each other.

"Sam," I panted after a few minutes. I was straddling his waist on the bed, his shirt discarded on the floor and my boobs out the top of my dress. "I have to go. Perrie will come looking for me if I'm not out there soon."

"Okay. When will I see you again?" Sam asked, running his hands up and down my arms.

"I don't know. I'll text you. But no one will know about it, okay?"

"Sure," Sam said. I hopped off him, pushing my boobs back into place and fixing my dress and hair. Sam pulled his shirt back on and fixed his hair too. "Um, Jade?"

"Yeah?"

"You got, uh, a little something . . ." he gestured to my neck. I turned and looked in the mirror.

"Shit, shit, shit," I muttered. Sam had left a big purple love bite on my neck. I quickly grabbed some of Perrie's concealer and dabbed the bruise. It didn't cover it that well but it was dark and hopefully Perrie will be too wasted to notice.

"I'll go first, okay?" I muttered to Sam. "Count to 60 after I've gone and then you can go." Sam nodded and I slipped out of the room without another word. What had I just done? What am I doing? This is going to tear Perrie apart. I seriously am a bad girlfriend. I made my way outside and over to Perrie.

"Theree you aarre, Jadee," Perrie slurred. Yup, definitely too wasted to notice my love bite.

"Here I am," I said. Perrie wrapped an arm around my shoulders.

"I loooove you, soooo much," Perrie said, leaning on me. I just smiled. I couldn't say it back. I did love her but I felt dirty. I'm ashamed of myself. I said I didn't want to hurt her, yet I just did. And she didn't have a clue. I felt so bad.