Almost Is Never Enough {Spoby Fanfic}

Chapter 3

The next morning I woke up to my mom standing across the room. I jumped at first, but then calmed down when I saw it was her.

"Hey. Sorry to wake you. I just wanted to spend some time with you before you woke up and started yelling at me." She said

I laughed slightly. "No... I'm not going to yell at you. I just... I really don't understand this family sometimes."

"Me neither, honey. And I'm sorry that you and your friends got caught in the middle of this mess. I never intended on this happening. I should've told you and your sister about your father's affair a long time ago. I just... I thought it was best if you didn't know. I was obviously wrong, and I'm sorry."

"Mom, I'm not mad at you for not telling. I'm mad because this has been a huge secret in this family, and you and dad act like nothing is going on. You act like I never... like I never did anything to Alison that night. I didn't hurt her, but you guys knew exactly what I did and you didn't tell me just because you wanted to forget. And I'm not okay with that. You may want to forget, and Melissa, and dad.. but not me. I had a right to know what was going on that summer."

"I know... I didn't realize it would be something this huge. But lies grow bigger and bigger each year you don't tell the truth. I'm sorry."

We both stayed silent for a few minutes. I wanted to forgive her, but something was telling me I shouldn't forgive her fully. Especially not dad.

"Well, I know you're sorry. But I really just need to have time to think about this." I said.

She nodded, and smiled sadly at me. At least she was making an effort.

"Okay, well I'll leave you alone now." She stated.

She headed out the door, but stopped in the doorway.

"I know you and Toby are having problems right now, but just... don't give up on him, Spencer. He's worth it."

Then she walked off with me thinking there was more to what she was saying.

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A couple hours later I figured it was best if I slipped out of the house without telling anyone. They would probably think I was seeing Ali. But I just wanted to see Toby, and he wasn't answering any of my calls.

I grabbed the keys, then snuck out secretly through the back door.

Perfect timing. Considering Melissa was coming down the stairs.

I drove away quickly before anyone had time to stop me.

It felt like forever to get there. It always did. I guess I was just so anxious to see him.

When I finally reached the loft, I walked quickly to the door. Emily was working.

"Hey, Spence. Are you here to see me?"

I shook my head. "No, um, I actually came to see Toby. Do you know if he's here?"

"Yeah, I guess. I haven't seen him, but he's probably upstairs."

"Thanks."

I started walking up the stairs, but she followed me.

"Hey, Spence?"

"Yeah...?"

"Is everything okay? I mean, you guys used to be so much more... involved. And I was just making sure everything was okay. With you two."

I shrugged. "To be honest, I don't know any more. Things are just so complicated. And I feel like... I feel like he doesn't want me anymore. And it's my fault. It's my fault because every time something good happens in our relationship, I always ruin it. When he tried giving me the necklace, I ruined it by lying to him about where I was when he wanted to give it to me. And I just don't want to ruin it anymore. Either he wants me or he doesn't."