What Happily Ever After?

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I woke up the next morning, sunlight shining through my window.  My brain splitting into two. Memories of last night flood my mind. I sat up and shook my head. I got up and went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. "she doesn't want you Blu." I told myself. I heard my alarm go off in my room. I walked back in there and turned it off. I looked over a the pills I was supposed to take right now. I picked them up and looked at them for a minute. I shook a little bit. 

"I'm not crazy...I'm not crazy!...I AM NOT CRAZY!" I chucked the pill bottle the wall and they flew everywhere. My brother came racing in. He looked at the pills on the floor and shook his head. he bent down to pick one up then handed me one. I shook my head at him. 

He sighed and sat down on my bed. "Blu we had a deal."

"I don't have any cigarettes" I told him.

He looked at me," Blu, now." then he held his hand out. I took the pill out of his hand and took it. He then got up and left. Shutting the door behind him. I looked around and my room. Blank and bland. I looked around my room and my gaze lands on my window. I see something move in Micheal's room. I walk over to my window to see what it is. I see Micheal smiling and shaking his head at someone. I look away thinking this is none of my business. But then I see Gabi step into view smiling and looking at Micheal. She takes a step towards him and he sits down on the bed. I shake my head. No they're not going to do anything. Gabi was just making out with someone else last night. She stands in front of him and leans in. As her lips touch his my heart seems to break into a million little pieces. I stand up and I text Gabi.

me- I would think about stuff before you do them.

I see Gabi say something to Micheal and pull out her phone I sat on the edge of my bed. looking straight ahead at the wall in front of me. A tear falling down my face. I quickly wipe it away.

*Ding*

I look down at my phone.

Gabi-Blu what are you talking about?? Are you okay??

Open the window. 

I'm coming over.

I look at the window and I see Gabi standing there waiting. I shake my head. Debating if I let her in or not. I sigh and let her in anyway. She climbs in and sits on the edge of my bed.

"What are you doing Gabi?"

She looks down at her hands."I don't know Blu."

I sigh, "Gabi I don't like Games."

Gabi looks up at me, " what games am I playing? You kissed Micheal yesterday. Then you came and kissed me."

I raise my eyebrow " Gabi we kissed because of a dare, then you were all over Alex. yes I kissed Micheal. I don't know why I did that. He was worried about me then I did it okay sorry. but why were you kissing him?"

She looks at her hands again." Blu..."

"No lies Gabi I want truth." I tell her.

She sighs and looks up at me, " I wanted to know why he was so special."

I frown and sit beside her. "what do you mean?"

She shakes her head, " you kissed him. I wanted to know what made him special...."

" I don't understand...."

"You kissed him willingly You had to be dared to kiss me." 

I stand up and run a shaky hand through my hair. God I need a cigarette. "That's because you are STRAIGHT GABI EVERY TIME SOME SAYS THE L WORD AND YOU RUN AWAY SO I KEPT MY CRUSH TO MYSELF!"

She stood up and scrunched up her nose. " Do. NOT START YELLING AT ME YOU KNOW DAMN WELL WHY I RUN!"

I throw my hands above my head ," WRONG I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING YOU ONLY TELL ME ABOUT THE GUYS YOU BANG ANYMORE OR THE JOINT YOU SMOKED OR HOW MUCH YOU DRANK. YOU NEVER TELL ME ANYTHING!! YOU DRIVE ME NUTS!"

She looks me in the eyes and throws her hands up in the air. " I WAS TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION, MAKE YOU JEALOUS!"

I feel my body temperature rise, my eyes blur and my ears start ringing. I look around but all I see is red. "Get out." I tell her. I blink trying to clear away the red. She takes a step back and looks at me. I put my hand to my head and squeeze my eyes shut before I let out a blood culturing scream. 

I feel someone put their hand on my shoulder they're talking but It's muffled. "GET OUT!!!!!" The hand yanks off me and I feel the cool air flow in. Meaning Gabi left. I curl up into a ball. Then  I blank.

When my ears stop ringing and the red disappears  from my eyes I look around and I see my brother standing In front of me a scared and worried look on his face. I look around and I see my room. My chair thrown a crossed my room. Pictures shattered on the floor.I look up at my brother. Before walking up to him and wrapping my arms around him. Only then did I feel the sting in my arms. Knowing when I blacked out I once again caused myself harm. "I need to go" I told him.

"Go where?"He asked me taking a step back.

"Away. Away from everything until I can figure all of this out."

He nodded, "Then I'll take you."

I shook my head, " I don't want you to get in trouble."

"Nonsense," he told me, "Let me help you. I can find you a place and I'll help you set everything up..." he looks me in the eyes." just please let me help you. I can't lose you." And with that he leaves my room, coming back with his laptop.

"So I have been looking at some apartments. I have been wanting to wait until you were 18 to move but you will be 18 in a month so why not just move now? You could live with me. Next week Mom is supposed to be taking Dad to Vegas for this poker thing. That's our chance to go. leave them a note explaining our move and just be gone. New start?" 

I look to the floor. Can I really do that? Just up and gone? I stand up and walk over to my closet and take out a box which I then hand to my brother. Confused he opens it. "where did you get all of this?" he asked referring to the hundreds I have saved.

"Every time I wanted a cigarette but didn't buy a pack I put five bucks in that box. Let's just say its been a 6 years of saving." 

"So does this mean you're going with me?"

 " That means I am going with you."