My Song Book

2

*Trapped*

What I feel in my heart is like a choking desire.
What I feel inside is like wanting
To cure my water desire but
To know avail.
My heart longs for it,
But what can I do for am trapped.

Trapped in the pain of my past.
The feeling of guilt
Is taking over my soul.
I know I did something wrong,
I hurt someone
But why do I feel like dying? ,
When I don't even know what I did wrong.

My insides churn.
My broken arm flings,
With a desire to unlock the doors
Of my past but why
Can't it be done ?
I reach for the door which leads me there,
But what do I see ?
Another tunnel which takes me back
For am trapped.

I wanna throw away
This feeling of guilt in me.
I wanna be free again
If only I knew what I did wrong
I'd go down on my knees and redeem me.

Oh lord I chant out,
I can only turn to you
In damn times like this,
I pray out loud.
Just then I see this pretty light
That calls me in.
I wonder to myself if I must go.

The one I hurt is standing there,
Sad eyes are all on his face,
Stretching his hands
He calls out my name.
But why can't I move just why?
Tears flood my face as I struggle
Out of this broken soul of mine.

I can see clearly now,
He's my desire,
The one I hurt deeply,
I see his heart from where I stand,
it hurts my eyes from here,
but then again I can't move.
Its like there's no way to redeem me

Calling out to him,
No answer.
He smiles and stretches forth his
Hands out to me once again.
The joy that feels my soul
Is unbearable
The smile I see on his poor face
Is my relief from guilt.

I can't believe what I see next.
His beautiful smile,
Turns to a choking frown
Which makes my heart
Drop from where it was.
His tears are like a bucket of sun being poured on me.
Oh lord it hurt seeing him like that.

He's down on the floor,
Oh Lord I killed him.
This is torture I just wanna dieeee
"Nooooooo"I shout out.
Looking beside me there he is
All cuddled up with that beautiful
Smile in his sleep.

With tears deep in my eyes,
I hold him close to myself
As I think to myself,
"Its about time I change for the better he's too precious to let go".

I realize now that he's
My small baby.
And I'd rather be trapped in his arms, than let him get trapped in the mystery I put him through again
I kiss his forehead.

WE ARE NO LONGER TRAPPED
IN PAIN
COZ WE ARE TRAPPED IN
EACH OTHERS ARMS.

I wrote this cos they are many things in my life that needs to reset and I pray I'd realize myself like all in a dream

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