My Song Book

5

"The River's Call"

I was once alone
With no one
To call my own
I used to have that longing
Of filling this gap in my heart
For everyone who came
Into this heart of mine
Did nothing but shatter it

Am sitting here with a thorn
And shattered heart
Like little pieces of glass
Broken to the floor with the
Fight of an angry couple
Was the state of my poor heart

That once treasured and most
Expensive glass that was my heart
Was now broken to
Tiny little pieces
"All hope is lost "
I thought to myself
No one could bring those
pieces back together
Its a total immposibility

I cried in my sleep
And sometimes felt steady as a rock
The pain I felt in my heart
Was unbearable
I could feel the shattering
Sensation of my heart
With every move and gesture I made
All I can do is to sit still
Like a pretty little dummy

I shut my ears to the world outside
No one to talk to
I didn't want to talk to anyone
I kept everyone looked
That aching feeling was now
Like music to my ears
I had a new found earpiece
Which was invisible to everyone
But that song of hate keeps playing
In my heart when I sit here alone

The outside is now like
A forbidden barrier I can't cross
Cos the fear of lashing out in
Public haunts me every time

It has been months now
But those words you said to me
Keep echoing in my very heart
I must step out of this world
This miserable place I call home
This place that doesn't care for me

Am atleast out of my room now
Looking around me and everything
Seems totally different
Why did you have to do this to me
The love I felt for you
Was inexplicable

As I pass by a river
I see how peaceful it is
I wanted to be in that peace
I want to be as peaceful as that river
The shiny water called out my name
Wanting to be one with me
It felt like all pain all sorrow
Would go away
Once I answered the rivers call

This river seemed nice
And friendly to me
I wanna be one with it

Feeling nothing but the desire
Of uniting with it
I can clearly see now
Am not a part of this world
And I was born to remain here

"Am coming to meet you river"
I cant say but now
And like mid air falling in deep
In deep to meet
To meet the river who seems beautiful
Am in the water "can't breathe"

Reality strikes and
I realize I don't want to go away
I wanna get out of this water
But to no avail
I can't swim
Its no use crying for help now
Coz am gone far away am deep down

"Is this the end"?

I open my eyes and then
All I can see are people's stares of worry
And him too was staring at me
"Should I go back to him"
I wonder
But my answer is no
I won't ever

All I know is the river I fell into
Made me come to my senses
And finally see how much more
Beautiful this life is
I won't go back no not ever
And next time I won't

Answer

The River's Call

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