daniel's POV ~
the room. it was spinning. making me nauseated. creating thoughts. about lane. about that stupid blonde who's name is unknown. it was all unclear. until the simple words came to me. it's all okay daniel, your safe here. the room stop. clearing up. i saw a man sitting looking at me sympathetic. i felt something in my heart. something crack a little more. i broke. cracked. explaining everything i knew and regretted. i felt bad. putting my problems on his shoulders. but he remain the same. listening intently. making sure i knew he was there. i felt vulnerable. sitting there telling him everything he could use against me. vulnerable, all i knew anymore.
i visit everyday. talking. him listening it was all i needed. until. i saw her. lane. with another guy. the whole street spinning. food carts flashing before my eyes. building disappearing. her chatting with him. that guy. he could crush me with four words. she doesn't love you. but he didn't. in fact he didn't see me. i saw a dumpster. i ran for it. and puked. she was destroying me from the inside out. i needed someone anyone. my therapist. my new best friend. i could trust him with the world. and you know what he would never tell a soul. but no one knew. about my problem. i still preformed. still posted. still was connected to the world. but i wanted everything back. i lost my world and was slowly gaining it back. lane. lane pohl. i missed our midnight kisses. your and laugh. your smile. everything you knew i loved. but i can't live anymore. i destroyed myself. and i want to fix it. but there's no such thing as time travel...
back at the house i drifted asleep on the couch. dreaming about if i hadn't messed up everything.
i woke up to lane. her sleeping next to me. limbs intertwined. i pinch myself. nothing. lane? she opens her eyes and smiles. cupping my face bringing her lips to mind. good morning mr. seavey she whispered. climbing on top. we made out. but i realized there's no way. i slept with another girl. lane this isn't right. she looks at me. her face dripping on the comforter. your right daniel you ruined me. no! lane listen it was a mistake. everything disappears and i was falling down. down. down. and finally...
i opened my eyes...
