The Alpha's Heart book 1

Chaper threeeee!!! (Sarah) and (Ethan)

Authors note..

This chapter will be a whole lot longer.. sorry XD

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"I held the knife close to my flat stomach.. it has come to this.. "

The words echoed off my flat screen television... not a bad idea, and the words were really making me think through the surround sound speakers, I could do it after Carrie left.. no, she'd never leave in my time of need.. And she is scaring me now, because she's thinking baby names now. She went from "I'm so sorry, Sarah," to "Isn't Emily just a darling name for a girl?"

I felt like a total moron for managing to get pregnant with Ethan's baby.. And things were looking up too, I thought this was my big break, my chance to date Ethan... Ethan! Crap, I having told him yet! What if he dumps me on the hard ground? Will he care even? Carrie flipped through a book called "2014 Best Baby Names" so I knew what she was thinking.

I bit my lip knowing that Ethan isn't gonna be a happy camper, I've known him long enough to know. And my parents were not gonna be pleased... They wanted me to be somebody, I was going to go to Yale, now I'm gonna be somebody alright, somebody on "Teen Mom".

I imagined the look on Ethan's face when he found out, he was gonna hate me.. I should've used birth control, then again I didn't know how the night would turn out.

This is my fault...

The TV let out a scream from the poor pregnant girl on it, I was just thinking that this girl looks like Carrie, but not as pretty. I heard Carrie let out a gasp as she did. " You won't do that will you?" Her eyes glared through me as if she knew what I was thinking. I shook my head even though I wasn't sure what to do. "No, for your sake." A smile of relief fell on to her face. "Good, maybe you could also keep it for my sake?" That's it! I can put it up for adoption, maybe Ethan's parents could keep it, that way I could see it. Or maybe Carrie would adopt it..

The image of Carrie and Shaun together holding our little tiny baby.

My mind flashed close up at the baby.. its little fingernails, it looked almost exactly like Ethan, except for the hair, the hair was obviously my hair color. It was the baby's most distinguished feature, everything else was pure Ethan.

It was then I noticed how I kinda wanted to keep it, Ethan probably wouldn't, but I did, Carrie did, maybe even my parents did.

"Jay," I said aloud, not realizing Carrie was listening to me.

"Jay?" she asked "What kinda name is that?"

"Huh?,'' I asked

"You just said 'Jay' what's that short for?"

"Umm, I dunno.. it kinda just came out.."

"Oooh, I know! Joseph (Jay) Michael Kelly!"

I coughed, that was actually a good name for a boy, and I kinda liked it,

"Oops, Rogers." She said spitting out Ethan's last name.

I went silent, because I didn't know if he would even help with the baby.

"Let's keep it at Kelly for now." I said plainly.

She nodded, "But what about a girl?"

I shook my head, "I don't think its gonna be a girl." The baby I saw didn't look like a girl so I wasn't gonna plan for names.

She said nothing, and who would? All she did was say "So your keeping him?"

"Yes."

Carrie let out a sound that sounded neither like a scream or a squeel, kinda like both.