Hidden Light

Hiding

I am "hiding"
.
I am always hiding it
.
I don't even remember the last time I showed it
.
Or maybe I just never really did
.
Maybe I never really did show it
.
Maybe because I was too scared
.
Maybe because I was too emotional
.
Maybe because I was over thinking
.
Maybe because I was hiding too much
.
...Just too much
.
Pain
.
Yes, I was
.
I was hiding too much
.
Which I decided not to show
.
But to hide.
.
Hiding never felt good
.
It was never
.
Feeling pain and hiding doesn't mix well
.
"Pain" and "Hide" we're never made for each other
.
They're like two people that love each other so much but was forbidden to love each other
.
And the people that can't stop their love are the people that hide
.
The "PAIN"
.
It was never easy
.
It was never been
.
Hiding it never felt easy
.
It never felt right
.
It just feels wrong
.
But somehow
.
I still do it
.
'Cuz I'm too scared
.
Scared...
.
The feeling which made me want to hide it all
.
Being scared is never good
.
But I still get scared
.
It makes me think twice
.
Made me look into it deeper
.
Makes me
.
Look into danger
.
And makes me even more scared
.
Which prepares me
.
But never makes me to show it.