Hidden Light

Pretending

Look at me
Do I look okay
I want you to see
And I want to say

I'm so in love with you
Why can't you see
You're beautiful
But you can't see

I'm braver than ever
If I just sing
But than to be a loser
I'll just keep pretending

I'll pretend that I feel nothing
But I know that there is something
I felt something for you, believe that
But you face him and say "I love you",
And I respect that

I don't wanna fight
The person that makes you smile
'Cuz I know
How much I fight with all my might
You'll still smile wide
Even if I'm away a thousand miles

I'm not upset love
Just 'cuz you don't see
I can't shove
It in your face just 'cuz you don't feel
The same way for me

You love him
I love you
Don't worry
I won't take you away from him
Just because I love you

I know you see me as "your best girl friend"
I also do
But the space between "girl" and "friend"
Makes me wanna say this to you

"You're too precious for him
You deserve better,
I promise I'll sing a million hymns
For you to say "I'm sorry but...
I love her"

Dodie said
"I'll be okay admiring from afar
'Cuz even when she's next to me
We could not be more far apart.

She tastes like birthday cake and
Story time and fall
But to her
I taste of nothing at all."

Oh I love my fantasy
Imagining things about you and me.
I don't confess 'cuz as you see
I don't want our friendship to flee