To be determined

love in disguise

I woke up in probably the worst place I could ever woke up at.

I was sleeping next to Jason.

Stripped naked.

In this way that made it advious what had happened the night before.

Of course there were other things like the soreness inbetween my thighs, and the blue 'balloon' on the floor next to his bed that sealed the deal.

Although the thought of staying here repulsed me I understood that he was drunk too. And plus my hangover sucked!

So I stood up grabbed the first T-shirt and shorts I saw in his closet and went to take a shower.

When I finished and walked out into the kitchen Jason was awake and making breakfast.

He turned around and smiled but I could see the pain of the hangover in his eyes too.

We weren't drinkers.

"So did we...?"

Jason asked nervously.

I bit my lip before replying,

" Yeah I'm pretty sure."

He pinched the bridge of his nose.

" Did I take it? "

I was confused for a moment but then understood what he meant.

"No. Not this time."

I said referring to that time he kissed me in the cemetery.

This time it was Jason who was Confused.

" So... I was your first kiss but not the guy you lost it to? "

" Yeah! I was raped when I was 16."

I said as if it was the most natural thing in the world.

He stepped closer to me.

" Can you tell me about it? "

This wasn't a story that I minded telling anybody so I went ahead.

" It was my junior prom night. Tyler was where ever, and my ex-best friend Preston took me to prom since I didn't have a date.

" We had so much fun, but when he drove me home he came in with me and locked the door behind him. I didn't know what he was doing but I didn't think much of it. He drugged me and when I woke up --"

I had never told this story to anyone before but I didn't think it would end like this.

" Did you tell anyone? "

Jason asked with concern in his eyes.

I looked up at him,

"No. "

I said turning around so he couldn't see the tears falling down my cheeks.

The next thing I knew he was hugging me.

I pushed him off.

" Why do you do this! "

I yelled while wiping away my tears.

" I hate this! I hate you! I hate how you make me cry, and feel safe even when I know I'm not!"

I didn't know I was crying again until Jason walked up to me, cupped my face in his hands and wiped them off.

I cryed into his chest which I just noticed was bare.

I pulled my hands across his abdomen with was very distinctly muscular.