The Best Days (ON HOLD)

CH 25: Nothing

Harry's POV

I briskly spun on my heels and began up the driveway. I took out my phone and texted Liam to come back for her. I couldn't stand to have someone who would say something like that to me near my property. 'Go die in a damn hole Styles' echoed in my head, it swam through my mind. 'What did I do to her? She cheated on me. I guess she never cared for me that much, she probably only enjoyed the gifts and attention. Of course I wasn't good enough, but Louis was. Louis was just peachy wasn't he? ' I won't let her say the last word. But that wouldn't be kind, who cares about kind. What did she just do and say Harry? She was your princess and you clearly weren't fit to be her prince. 

I thought she was mine. 

"You know what?!" I called to her. She turned to me with a tight jaw. "I hope you find a man who's good enough! But if you want a man just good enough I suggest you go to hell!"

"At least I don't have sex on the first date!" She sassed and turned back. I wanted to smack her, for the first time, I wanted to smack her. I wanted to hurt her and then kiss her scars. I wanted to love her and I wanted to cause her pain. I wanted to call out for her but no words came out, I couldn't make my feet jog to her. I could only continue up the driveway and storm into my house. I glared out the window at her and heard a jingle from the hall. Eve. I called her to me and picked her up. I tried not to cry, I tried desperately. Instead I wrote a quick note that read:

Dearest virgin girl,

I hope that you have fun with your life and I also hope that you learn not to ignore what you have and go for another. Be grateful and if this relationship didn't teach you God knows what will. 

H xx

I tucked it on Eve's collar and set Eve just outside my front door.

"Go to mommy." I whispered and she ran down the drive to Hope. Hope noticed the jingle of her tags and also took heed of the note in her collar. She quickly picked Eve up and read my note. I saw her bite her lip and look up at the sky. I saw her mouth a word or two but I couldn't make I couldn't, she was too far away. It reminded me of when we went to see Frozen together. That's when I couldn't hold anything together anymore. Yes we dated for one month, but we've been friends for half a year. Only half a year? We got together a lot and I grew too fond of her too fast and now I'm hurting more than I should. 

I strolled into my bedroom and sat on the bed with my head in my hands. I smiled and mouthed 'Let it go' from Frozen. That was her favorite from the soundtrack. 

 I laughed silently and shook my head, smiling. 

 

HOPE'S POV

His note was infuriating. Absolutely unbelievable. I'm not sure I could ever repair what I've done. The boys came up to the driveway shortly. Without any hesitance I climbed inside and sat in the backseat. 

"Let it go." I said, after realizing I had said 'Let it go' instead of 'let's go' my temper grew even more short. Eve hopped in the car and Louis shut the door behind her as she jumped into his lap. 

"Can't hold it back anymore!" Louis laughed.

"Just go."  I rolled my eyes and Louis crawled back next to me. He draped an arm over my shoulders and Liam began to drive away. 

"I assume it didn't go well?" He asked stroking his finger gently against my jawline. 

"No. I don't want to talk about it. Just read this." I handed him the note. He glanced up at me before taking it in his hands and began to scan it's contents. 

"Harry wrote this?"

"Sure isn't my handwriting Lou." I said sarcastically. 

"Harry? This is terrible what did you do? God." I decided not to say anything more but keep my head against the seat, I didn't care to buckle myself. I wouldn't care if we got in a crash and I was hurt, I deserve it. Every ounce of pain, I deserve it. "Hope, talk to me."

"Maybe I don't need to talk, you're the one who screwed this up Louis. Your the one who did it. You took off your shirt and pants, you crawled into my bed and you kissed me. You are the one who came out of the bedroom when I told you to get dressed and what did you do? You screwed everything up Lou. Everything." I know my words stung him. I couldn't care less about anyone right now. 

"Don't do this Hope-"

"Did I screw up you and El's relationship?"

"Yes you did."

"How did I do that?"

"I loved you more than her and then I couldn't date someone who I didn't love as much as I love you. I'm sorry I lied but I'm telling you now because now is a good time and I don't know what I'm saying, all I know is I love you."

I didn't want to think about what Louis had said right now, nothing mattered. Nothing. I felt nothing. I smirked, nothing. It was a beautiful feeling. I've had so many crushing life experiences, I'm fine. We could crash right now and I would feel nothing. 

He said no more, but he did however tightened his grip on me and tucked his head in the nape of my neck. He really does know what I need when I need it. I refuse what I want when I'm upset and that's what ticks me off. I am my own problem. And that being that, I am also theirs. I feel like a worthless, selfish, waste of time. I thought of the song 'Let it Die' by Feist. PJ's favorite. 

I noticed no more tears escaped my eyes. I began to grin, I truly did have no emotion, if anything, it's happiness. Cruel, cold, happiness. 

 

LOUIS' POV

I saw Hope smirk. How could she be smiling? Harry told her the most mean thing he has ever said, and it was addressed to his 'princess'. Why was she smiling? I would rather have her sob on the floor than show an emotion as cruel as this one.

I chose not to say anything. I wasn't sure how to feel about anything right now. Hope cheated with me, on my best friend, and me and Liam drive her home, she smirks and I don't know why. 

The car ride was long. By the time we reached Hope's apartment she was already petting Eve and telling me how ridiculous everything was. She sounded drunk but I can't put a label on her behavior, I've experienced nothing like her circumstances. 

"Honestly I don't know why I would make a fuss over this! It's just another 'lesson' in life huh? God, this really is silly. Louis, will you go back to Harry's and explain that I'm sorry. No, I'll go. You'll come too, you two must have a talk after all this. I'd pay to see what goes down between you two ha!" She laughed and stumbled into the entry of her apartment. I followed close behind, trying very hard not to turn her around and tell her to feel a regular, human emotion. "Tomorrow at 3:00, I'll pick you up and we'll visit ol' Harry eh?" She smiled and turned to me.

"No, I don't want to go anywhere with you, not until I see you feel something. Now wipe that stupid smirk off your face or I'll give you a reason to." I spat. 

"Goodbye Louis, I'm still coming for you though, and don't disappoint me by not being home." She tapped my nose and giggled. "Nothing." She turned back and walked down the hall to her apartment. 

I think I will 'disappoint' her. I'l bring Harry, to her.