On the Inside

Chapter 6 - All Alone and Lost

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An influx of cold wind and rain blew towards me. I had already walked about a mile away from the place I once called home. I tried to keep all of the things that had happened at the back of my head. Everything was already rough and I didn't want to make it worse. I only had a polyester jacket on and had the hoody pulled over my head. My bag wasn't that heavy but my exhaustion made it feel that way. I wondered what Ed was doing right now. Probably just laying down watching TV. I didn't have anymore hope left of him.

The thunder and lighting crashed every once in a while and I attempted to find a place to rest under. I was soaking wet from head to toe; shaking and too weak to take another step. Trying to calm myself, I looked around for a place and saw a store with a long roofing to my right. I forced myself to walk there with every little life I had left in me. Finally when I reached it, I stepped under the roof. It looked like an umbrella for the store's door. For a few minutes I just stood there not knowing what to do, shaking from the cold or fear - I wasn't sure.

My body was filled with agony; I sat down on the dry ground leaning my back to the store window. My feet started to ache. How stupid I was to leave the house. I couldn't control it anymore. Tears started flowing down my face blending in with the rain. Finally, I could cry out loud for once. I always had to cry silently to myself, but now I could scream and shout and no one would hear me. So I cried out all I could until I was empty of tears, of hate, and from negativity.

The sound of soothing rain hitting the small plastic roof made rhythms in my ear. I knew that it was only me and myself now; all alone and lost. I didn't have the slightest idea where I was. All I knew was that I was far away from my once called home and that made me relaxed and anxious at the same time. I didn't know where I was going to go. I just wanted to leave. I wanted to go somewhere that no one would know me and start a new life. All I need right now is someone who would help me.

Hours passsed by and the rain had finally stopped. I pressed my head to the window I was leaning on and closed my eyes. My head hurt really bad, yet I couldn't do anything about it, so I tried to get atleast two hours of sleep. I shut my eyes harder trying not to think of anything.

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I felt something vibrate in my pocket. I opened my eyes and rubbed them with my knuckles. The sun was rising but clouds blocked its way. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the vibrating object. It was my phone! I had accidentally brought it along. I clicked on it to stop the alarm. 6:30 AM, I read the displaying time. Just when I pushed my hand to the ground to get up I realized how sore my body was. My back, hands, and feet all were aching. My jeans were still wet and my shirt was damp.

I looked to see if anyone was around. No one. Not a single soul. It looked like some kind of ghost town you see in movies. The smallest sounds could be heard. I hugged my knees and just sat there for a while thinking of the different ways I could die. I gulped to every one of them.

I reached into my bag I had brought along and found a pair of comfy pants and a sweatshirt. I had to go somewhere to change into them but something freaked me out the most: I wasn't disguised, meaning if anyone noticed me in public, I'd be done.