At first Ashton was frozen but then suddenly he kissed me back. I was equally shocked and happy. After a minute I slowly pulled away with sparks in my chest and butterflies in my stomach. Ashton sat there speechless with his hands folded in his lap, he was just looking out at the train tracks as yet another train came in. Suddenly the butterflies began to fade and the sparks in my chests began to feel like someone pulling and ripping things apart.
"Ashton I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that." I said quietly looking over at him. Even though it didn't seem possible I swear he got quieter.
"I think I'm gonna head home it's getting late." Ashton spoke quietly after a little bit of time.
"Ok. Want me to drive you?" I asked watching as he began to get up.
"No I think I'll walk. I can use the air." Ashton said quietly as he began to walk in the opposite direction of the truck.
My chest began to hurt even more. I in the matter of just seconds screwed up things with only friend here I had. I sat there a little while longer and watched as the last train came in. Once it had been shut off the world just got quiet except for the owl off in the distance. The ride home was filled with poisonous thoughts and deafening silence. I didn't even feel like listening to music. The thing that managed to help me feel better in most any situation, I wanted nothing to do with it. As I pulled up in to my grandparents drive way I noticed how they left the porch light on for me. It was the only light on in the house telling me they had went to bed.
Quietly I went up to my room and turned on the lamp beside my bed so I could draw. I wasn't in the mood to sleep or the mood to listen to music so I might as well do my next favorite thing. I grabbed my drawing book and pencil set and began going to work. I got so lost in drawing that I had lost complete track of time. That was until my phone went off around 3:30 am. I looked down at my drawing book and realized that I had drawn Ashton.
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I hadn't really meant to it just happened. I just shook my head before poking up my phone to see who had texted me.
Ash: You awake?
Me: Yeah what's up?
Ash: I can't sleep. A lot on my mind.
Me: Yeah me too..
Ash: I'm sorry Luke
Me: You have nothing to be sorry for
Ash: Yeah I do. I shouldn't have just ran off like that
