game of a player-c.d

36.

rosie
i've spent the last two days contemplating if i should tell cameron or not because i don't know how he'd react.

but most importantly, i told my dad. i told my dad about everything that happened, resulting in us both crying on the couch. but he said he'd love me no matter what i do and that he'd be with me every step of the way. i think he cried the most because he really liked cameron and wanted him as family but i guess that's not happening.

i heard a slight knock on my door and watched matt walk in. i've been a mess since i found out and i haven't left the house but matt has been visiting me everyday.

"rosie, we're going out." he says pulling the covers off me.
"no leave me alone!" i say pulling them back over me.
"you need to get out of the house, you can't stay here forever!" he says pulling me out.
"matt i'm too weak to go out and do anything." i say as i sit down on my bed.
"okay just brush your teeth and hair, wash your face and clean up. it's not good to be staying like this." matt says.
i sigh, "okay."

i know he's only looking out for me but i just don't want to do any of this bull crap. i don't want to look in the mirror and know that i've made a huge mistake.

i walk back into my room to see my bed cleaned up.
"thank you matt. i seriously don't know what i'd do without you." i laugh as i pull him into a hug.
"rosie i think it's time." he says.
"what for you to get a haircut?" i jokingly say.
"ouch, no! but i think it's time for you to tell cameron." he says.

my heart drops. i've been avoiding this for a reason!

"i don't think that's the best idea." i say.
"no it is a good idea. you can't keep avoiding him!"
"i can though, it's not that hard to avoid someone. he's done it to me before and now it's my turn to do it to him!" i say.

matt pulls a piece of paper out of his pocket and passes it to me, "you're going to invite him over, show him this and tell him what it is!" matt seriously says.

i sigh as i open up the picture, it was a picture of the ultrasound i had.

i shook my head as i looked at it, "how did you get this?"
"i asked them to print it. but that's not the point, are you gonna tell him?" he asked.

i stare at the picture for a while and think about all the outcomes. there are positive and negative outcomes. but after thinking about it i finally built up enough courage.

"i'll tell him."

later
matt had just left and it was time for me to tell cameron.

i pulled out my phone and texted cameron.

come over now

i closed my eyes and hit send, this could be the happiest day of my life or the day i realise this was all a mistake.

minutes passed by and i heard a light knock on my door.
"hello?" i ask.
"it's cameron."
"come in." i say after sitting on my bed cross legged.

he slowly walked in and sat next to me on my bed.

"hey." he says breaking the silence.
"hi."
"look i know i've said it many times, but i'll say it again. i do love you, rosie i am so sor-"
i stopped him,"i just have something to tell you."

i took a deep breath in and a deep death out.

third person narrative
"cameron, there's no easy way to say this. so i won't say it, i'll show you."

rosie nervously picked the picture up from behind her and passed it to cameron. he stared down at it for a few seconds.

"cameron, i'm pregnant."

cameron's eyes grew bigger then all of a sudden he threw the picture on the floor.

*listen to Dynasty by MIIA*

"no you fucking aren't." cameron says jumping up from the bed as he shakes his head.
"i'm not gonna lie to you." she says as she bites her lip, trying not to cry.
"this is wrong, it doesn't work." he says kicking the bed frame in anger.
"cameron no, i went to the doctors!"

he stood still for a few seconds,"i can't do this."
rosie tried to talk,"that's why we ca-"
"no, you don't understand! i can't do this." but cameron interrupted.

rosie got up from her bed as she furrowed her eyebrows at cameron.
"what do you mean you can't do this?" she shouts as tears build up in her eyes, "i can't do this by myself!" i yell.
"rosie, i'm not going to be tied down like this! find someone else who will help you and love you like i do."cameron says as he grips onto his hair.
"cameron you don't fucking love me!" she yells at him.

he stayed silent as his mind was being flooded with mixed emotions.

"we have to do this together! this is our baby!" rosie says defending herself.
"no rosie, that baby is all yours." he says shaking his head as he heads for the door.

rosie jolted and grabbed his arm, causing him to turn around.

"cameron, i love you." she says letting the tears fall down her face.
"goodbye rosie."

rosie's grip on cameron's arm loosens as those words fell from his mouth.

and before you know it cameron was gone and rosie was on the floor, unable to breath. her chest was heavy and it felt like she had been stabbed in the stomach.

but she couldn't help but to feel where the real pain was coming from.

she took the picture and ripped it up multiples of times, "why, why, why, why." before throwing it all against the wall, and screaming in anger and pain.

rosie
through it all, i thought cameron would care for me. be there for me. love me.

i know i shouldn't have fallen in love with you. but it was the way your eyes stared into mine, the way your heartbeat was music to me and the way you were perfect for me.

i don't know how much i know but i certainly do know..that i lost at

the game of a player.

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