Love, lust, and hawiian pizza

Chapter 3

Chapter 3:

Sometimes I lay in bed at night and just think...

I wonder what it's like to be loved. Is it nice? How does it feel to know someone cares about you and always will? How do you know if someone loves you?

'You don't' a small part of me decided

Love isn't real.

I read about love and watch romantic movies, but I don't think it will happen to me.

I don't know my dad. He left when I was ten and never came back, Mary doesn't love me. She's never payed very much attention to me she's always been concerned about a man loving her and I fallow behind and do what she says like a good kid should but there's never been any love in my life and I don't know what it looks like. I think Mary and Bill are content, not in love...

I got up and went to go sit on the balcony and watch the sunrise and noticed a figure standing near the ledge. Dylan. He stood shirtless leaning over the dark wooden ledge in deep thought. I have never, ever, ever seen a body that perfect! Oh the things I would do to him...

Why does this beautiful creature have to be my soon to be step brother? Why?!? Calm down Kalli!

I walked over to Dylan and leaned against his shoulder watching the sunrise. It was so pretty, the orange hue just made me feel so calm. It was perfect. I felt Dylan move and I thought he was going to move away from me, but instead he put his arm around my waist and held me to his side.

"What are you thinking about?" He asked me

"Love, you?" I answered honestly, I don't feel like there's a reason to lie about it, Dylan makes me feel safe. Like I can tell him anything.

"You..." me??? I looked up at him and he gave me a faint smile before kissing my forehead and turning back to the rising sun...what the hell was that about?

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God the sun is bright!

I open my eyes and notice I'm still outside on the balcony. Hmmm I must have fallen asleep, I didn't really get much sleep last night with so much on my mind so I'm not surprised I fell asleep out here. I felt something move and I look down to see Dylan's naked chest beneath me. We must have fallen asleep watching the sunrise. In the past few weeks me and Dylan have gotten pretty close but he does still like his space, so everything about this morning confused me.

"Morning" I noticed him sign and chuckle. It was kind of awkward signing when your literally on top of someone.

"Want some waffles?" I asked nervously getting up but he pulled me back down to his chest and signed one word.

"Stay" 'gladly' I thought, getting comfy in his arms on the small couch.

We just laid there for what seemed like hours just cuddling...it was really nice but once again not something I would expect from someone so closed off. I guess we all need comfort sometimes.

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Sorry for the short chapter