Stop thinking 2jae// Sope

Ch. 6

3rd Person Pov

After a few hours almost all of them were a bit tipsy. There weren't much Sex topic question till now because they were all waiting for someone to make the first step.
Jaebum was thankful. He really wasn't ready for any Youngjae Sex stories.
It was BamBams turn now.
He looked at everyone and then smirked. 

"Well, let's get to the serious topic, shall we?" He asked ironically.
A few sighs were heard but of course that doesn't stopped Bam. Even Jinyoung mumbled a quick 'Finally'. To be honest, the game got a bit boring with all those standard question. 

"Never have I ever kissed a guy." Bam had to drink himself because of the story with Jackson but that doesn't stopped him from asking anyway.
Four other people had emptied their glasses. It wasn't much of a surprise that Jackson and Mark drank but that Jaebum and Yugyeom drank as well was one.
Youngjae looked kinda shocked at Jaebum, but somehow all the others were more interested in Yugyeom.

"When? Why? Who? Where?" Bam asked excited.
Yugyeom only blushed and tried to play it off.

"It was drunk. It was some random boy at a party." He mumbled and filled his glass again. 
All the others nodded and concentrated on the game again while Youngjae was still staring at Jaebum.
It kind of bothered him that he didn't knew about this. He himself would tell the older everything so why didn't Jb told him about this? 
He didn't have a reason to be ashamed of this. Everybody knew that Youngjae was the last person to judge anyone. So why?
Suddenly Jaebum turned around a little bit to be able to look at the youngers eyes. Youngjae blushed a little bit and Jaebum smiled slightly.

"I explain it later to you, okay?" He whispered and Youngjae could only nod.
How was he always able to kinda stop the younger from over thinking? Was he a mind reader or something? 

"It's mine turn now." Jackson announced.

'Oh, great.' Both, Jaebum and Mark, thought.
A drunk Jackson can now ask about Sex, because Bam did the first step. Lovely.

"Never have I ever slept with a guy."
Jackson immediately drank himself and was now looking at anyone else.

Yugyeom and Bam both shaked their heads.
Jinyoung was staring at Mark who sighed and also drank.
Youngjae didn't even bother to think about it and then there was Jaebum.
He seemed to be a little hesitate before he took his drink and gulped the burning substance.
Beside Mark everyone gasped.

"Well, that's new." Jackson said to break the silence what didn't work because the awkward silence just began to become more and more uncomfortable.
Jaebum took a deep breath and then looked at his friends.

"You can ask questions now." He said while letting out this breath.

"Why didn't you tell us about it sooner?" It suddenly came from Youngjae. It was rarely audibly but since everyone was quite by now, all of them heard it.
They asked him what exactly his sexuality was. He answered that he was bisexual even though he isn't sure about that either.
He also couldn't answer the question of how long he has been bisexual.
Well, from the beginning on it was Youngjae he liked. But he couldn't say that right now. He didn't even dared to look at the younger eyes right now. Well that was until he heard the younger voice beside him. Asking him why he didn't said anything. 
Jaebum could imagine how the younger felt. Maybe he was even upset with him now.

"Well, eh, I wasn't quite sure myself so I tried some things out. I wanted to wait until I'm sure before I tell you guys, I guess." Jaebum explained and wanted to punch himself. That sounded so fake.
He was more then thankful when Jinyoung suggested to continue the game.
It was clear that Jinyoung got the hint. Jaebum was obvious. Jackson, Bam and Yugyeom were just to dumb to get it. No offence but those three were way to hyped to get serious topics like this.

And Youngjae. Well, Youngjae was a whole new thing.
Youngjae had problems. Mental problems. That's why none of his relationship lasted really long so far.
The girls always would break up with him because they couldn't deal with it. Love doesn't heal broken people. It can help. But it doesn't heal them.

The group knew about these problems. Jaebum was often there when Youngjae had one of his breakdowns, because he was the only person that had Youngjaes full trust. The younger would always call him first when he was getting bad again.
Luckly Jaebum was a strong person. He didn't let himself fall into that dark hole as well. He held the younger hand from above but he wouldn't let him drug him into that hole as well. Not because he was selfish. He just knew that when this would happen they both would break.
Jaebum needed Youngjae as a lover.
Youngjae needed Jaebum as a friend.
It wasn't that easy. There was so much more behind it that both of them didn't figured out yet.
Jaebum couldn't just confess and live a happy life with the younger. Beside his parents there were a bunch of other problems that had to be solved first.
And now that he outed himself he felt like there would be a lot of new problems.