Stop thinking 2jae// Sope

Ch.11

Markhyuck really got me....
Haechan is my son.
I'm such a mulitfandom hoe, it's not even funny anymore. (Still no regrets)

Youngjae POV

"And what did you answered him?", my Friend, Hoseok, asked me during our lunch break. 
He was one of my few friends I had on university. I don't even know how we got friends again.
Like I am studying music while he is in the dance department. He is two classes over Yugyeom but those two often would train together.
I guess I met him at the liberty when I started working there and helped him with some music project they had to do.
Hoseok had such a bride personality whereas his friend, Yoongi, was the exact opposite. Nevertheless it was almost impossible to separate those two.
Even now Yoongi sat next to Hoseok and in front of me. I didn't mind tho. I learnt to get to know him and he seriously isn't intimidating at all. Gosh he is a soft ball who can help me with my classes because he's studying music as well but he obviously is my senior.

"I told him that I love him.", I answered honestly.

Hoseok was shocked. Even Yoongi looked up from his phone and started to listen to our conversation.

"Okay. But do you love him like he loves you?"

I sighed. Since last week, when Jaevum confessed to me, I've been asking myself the same question.
I mean, while he was saying all this stuff to me my heart was beating like crazy and it was hard to breath but does this really mean that I'm in love with him?
He's been there for years now... shouldn't I already realised that I might have fallen for him ages ago?
Jaebum was always there and sure I always had thus special place for him in my heart but-

"Maybe you should just give it a try
...", it was Yoongi who cut my train of thoughts.
I needed a moment to get that it was really him talking. He usually didn't interfere when it came to my personal life. He just sat there and played with his phone.

"You two have been best friends for a really long time now, right? Maybe you were in love with him all along but didn't noticed it because you know... he was always there anyway. Just like a habit so why label it? Tho now that he talked about it you're about to fully realise it. I guess you only need some more time which he is willing to give, right? ", he continued.

To say that I was surprised would be an understatement. Same goes to Hoseok. He was just watching Yoongi while he was talking and if I don't start to imagine things then he also blushed as soon as Yoongi was done taking. 
The oldest just smiled at me and returned to playing with his phone.

"Right...", I said and stared at the food in front of me.

I mean, what am I supposed to do? I'm full of problems it would only cause him harm and more stress if I give this relationship a chance... he deserves better but on the other side it seems like he is the only person who is able to deal with me but yet again... was I really this blind all these years? Am I really to dumb to realise that I'm in love with the person closest to me?

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