Stop thinking 2jae// Sope

Ch.10

Lol. Hi. Are here still some people reading this? I don't blame anyone who leaves because I'm hella slow. Whatever. Much love.

3rd Person POV

It felt like years until one of them dared to speak up. They were just looking at each other.
Jaebum was really nervous but he didn't regret confessing his feelings. He felt relieved. He is well aware of Youngjaes condition and yet he still fell in love with him and he loved to be in love with such a human being. He wanted to help the younger, like he already did. He wanted the younger to smile again. A real sincerely smile that wasn't forced just so nobody would worry about him.
Jaebum knew. He knew that his best friend could fall in one of his mood every second. He knew what the younger thought about himself.... it would be hard. So hard, but he also knew that Youngjae wanted to change. The younger wanted to be happy again. He wanted to be motivated again and not forcing himself out of his bed every single day.
They both knew each other so well.
They both needed each other more than anything else.
They knew, but was it enough to know something?

"You.... you love me?", Youngjae nervously asked.
He just couldn't believe what he just heard. It wasn't like he had something against it. He was just really overwhelmed.

Jaebum gulped and took all his courage to be at least a little bit confident in what he is saying. He came this far so he could as well let everything out.

"I do.", he blankly said.
No doubt. No regrets.
He wasn't even shy. He was confidently looking at the younger in front of him. Being prepared for whatever answer.

Youngjae smiled. It wasn't a smile because he was happy nor was it a frustrating smile.
It was more of those smile one make when they didn't knew what else to do.

"Jaebum. I appreciate your honesty. I really do. And I am so grateful that there is such a wonderful person as you who is willing to fall in love with someone like me but... I-I don't know. It's not like I don't love you. Of course I do! You're my best friend. You are seriously all I need. But... but- I don't even know anything about my sexuality? I mean- It doesn't feel strange to know that a guy is in love with me? It's fine. Yet I only had girlfriends before? Though they were some sluts.
Bummie... I really don't know what to do- I don't want to lose you.", Youngjae said. He said it calm. Trying to explain anything that was going on in his head. He was over thinking again. Within seconds all his positive thoughts were blown away by the thought of losing Jaebum. Tears were starting to fill his eye but before any of them could roll down his cheek Jaebum already dried them with his sleeves.

"Youngjae. You won't lose me and I don't expect any answer. Honestly I just want you to know that I seriously adore you. All of you. All I'm asking as for right know is if you could continue to depend on me? Please Jae. Just trust me."
After that the older pulled Youngjae into a hug and the younger immediately hid his face in Jaebums neck and nodded eagerly.
There wasn't a single person who Youngjae trusted as much as he trusted Jaebum. No offence toward his other friends. He deeply loved them as well but it was different. So different.

"Jaebummie?", Youngjae mumbled after a while of just laying in between Jaebums hug.
The older just hummed and started to massage Youngjaes head a bit.

"I love you.", the younger said and heard how his best friends heart was starting to beat 10 times faster than before.

"I know."
He really knew. But he also knew the following and he was willing to wait and long as he had to.

"I just need time.", Youngjae said while standing up and smiling at Jaebum.
He leaned down and kissed his forehead.

"Just wait a little longer."
And then he left the room.
Jaebum heard how his friends cheered because they could finally continue their game. They wouldn't wait for Jaebum, because he was one of those players who disappeared sooner or later and eventually will come back. (Me)
It wasn't a surprise. It was totally normal.

"I will wait as long as I have to.", Jaebum whispered even though Youngjae wasn't anymore.