Glass Heart//2Jae

02

Edited

Youngjae's POV

"You're ridiculous Youngjae! I'm not a faggot like you!"

Why would the guy I've been friends with for years say that to me? I trusted him. I told him everything!

Come on Youngjae. You've been in your room crying for the past three hours your pillow is soaked.

I barely have any motivation to do anything. I can barely even sit up in bed just to go eat.

You don't deserve to eat Youngjae. That's one reason why Kai doesn't like you anymore. You're fat and ugly.

I shake my head to try and rid the horrible thoughts in my head but it doesn't work. I go to lay down but before my head can even hit my pillow I hear my phone go off.

Hey Sunshine ;)

CYJ~ Who is this?

It's Jb:)

I quickly change his name in my phone and feel myself giving a small smile

CYJ~ Well hello jb

CYJ~ and really? Sunshine?

Jaebum~ Yes. It suits you

CYJ~ You haven't even known me day creep

Jaebum~ I. Am. Hurt

CYJ~ Awe you poor baby. I wish I knew how you felt:((

Jaebum~ Why are you so mean to me?!

CYJ~ I'm kidding you dork

I roll my eyes and do one of those weird nose exhale things before biting my lip to hide my smile.

I'm just about to text Jb again when I get a text from the person I've been crying over since I got home.

Kai<3~ Youngjae, are you okay?

CYJ~ Am I okay? Are you really asking if I'm okay?

Kai<3~ Youngjae please

CYJ~ You humiliate me in front of the school

CYJ~ Treat me like I'm nothing

CYJ~ And call me a faggot

CYJ~ I don't even want to talk to anymore Kai!

I drop my phone on my bed wipe away the tears that I didn't even notice fell down my cheeks until I felt one drop on the back of my hand.

I hear my phone go off and I'm scared to look at it

Jaebum~ Do you wanna hang out sometime Youngjae?

Jaebum~ Youngjae?

CYJ~ Sorry Jb. I was dealing with something

CYJ~ But I would love to:)

Jaebum~ Alright cool!

I finally set my phone down on my nightstand with the thought of both Jb and Kai on my mind.

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"Boo!" Someone says from behind me while at my locker.

I jump before grabbing my chest, turning around, and seeing the culprit, "Holy shit Jb."

Jb just stands there laughing while I take a deep breath and try to regain myself.

"Oh my god why would you do that?" I ask still trying to calm myself down.

"To try and make sure your day doesn't turn out like it did yesterday." Jb said with a little bit too much joy in his voice.

I roll my eyes and look to my side to see everyone giving me some of the dirtiest looks I think I've had. It's like they're peering into my soul and it's giving me terrible anxiety.

As Jb and I walk down the hallway to just waste time until school starts, I get insults left and right. All from people who are somewhat close with Kai.

"Faggot."

"Homo."

"Moron."

"Bitch."

I feel my whole body start to shake and I pull my sleeves down to cover my hands. I never knew why I did that but I guess it's an anxiety thing.

Words are still getting thrown at me and they're killing me. I fell that knot in my chest that's about to break and let the tears flow. I try holding it in the best I can but it doesn't work. 

I start hyperventilating and I see Jb starting to worry. He grabs my wrist and pulls me towards the closest doors to get outside.

"Youngjae hey. It's okay. You're okay. I promise." He said cupping my face trying to wipe all the tears falling from my eyes.

After what felt like an eternity, I finally calmed down and instantly felt humiliated, "I'm so sorry Jb. I'm sorry you had to see me like that. I'm sor-"

"Youngjae it's fine I promise."

You're an idiot Youngjae. You met this guy yesterday and you're already crying in front of him. He probably hates you already. Fucking idiot.

"I'm sorry Jb." I say barely over a whisper.

His hands are still cupping my face as he examines every part of my face.

I'm exhausted. It's only 8:32 am and I already wish I was home and asleep. God I'm stupid.

Jb slowly walks me inside and makes sure I'm at my first class and I'm okay before he leaves.

God I wish I was dead.

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The day just seemed to drag on for what seemed like ages. I have a huge migraine, my eyes are itchy from crying this morning, my face feels puffy, and I'm just a mess. 

Jb's messaged me throughout the day to check on me. I really appreciate it. If he hadn't have helped me out this morning and gotten me to my class, I wouldn't have gone to class. I would've gone home.

I trudge to my locker and grab everything I need to go home and just close my eyes and breathe for a second. I soon feel a tap on my shoulder and turn to see Jb.

"Hey sunshine," he says smiling "how are you feeling?"

"Well, I still have a migraine, my eyes look like my allergies acted up really bad, and I'm exhausted." I say before letting out a tired giggle.

Jb laughed a bit before shutting my locker door and wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I felt a bit weird as all the insults this morning kind of came back, but it felt nice. Kind of like I belonged there.

"Do you need a ride Youngjae?"

"Oh no. I walk. It's alright. Thank you though Jaebum." I give him a smile before slightly walking towards the direction of my house,

I get a few inches from him before he gets in front of me, picks me up and puts me over his shoulder.

"Oh my god what are you doing?" I ask as I laugh and somewhat scream.

"There is no way in hell you are walking home." He begins, "You have had a rough day and you don't need to be walking!"

I try and kick and flail myself around trying to get out, but Jb has a pretty tight grip on me. Next thing I know, I'm being put into the passenger seat of Jb's car.

"Oh and by the way," he says as I begin to buckle my seat belt after setting my backpack in the backseat, "it's Jb. We went over this." He  says with a smile.

Oof. I edited this and even then it still ended pretty bad as I had no idea how to end it! But I hope you enjoyed it! Let me know if you see any mistakes:)