Make Her Fall (Underconstruction)

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

“Gianne. What’s wrong? Tell me.” He said in a stern tone. Hinarap niya ako sa kanya. I quickly wiped my tears and tried to hide my weeping face away from him. He held my fists and made his grip tighter. I was trying to fight back but he was just too strong.

“Paul ano ba? Kung gusto mong umuwi, umuwi ka na.” I made an excuse. Sinabi ko yon but I really just didn’t want him to see me cry like this. He was still holding my hands but I was still trying to remove it from his.

“Gabi na, uuwi ka mag-isa? Nasisiraan ka na ba ng ulo?” He merely laughed but at the same time his tone was serious. He looked at me like I was a child being scolded and he was the parent.

“Bitawan mo ako. Uuwi ako kung kelan ko gusto, and it’s none of your business.” Pilit kong kinalas yung kamay ko pero hawak niya pa din. “Paul ano ba! Bitawan mo ako sabi eh!” I shouted but he still didn’t let me go.

“Paul bitawan mo na ako please.” I pleaded, a tear fell from my face. Tinitigan niya ako, next thing I knew.. I was locked up in his arms and was caressing my hair.

Ako kasi yung tipo ng tao na mas lalong naiiyak kapag may nagcocomfort sa akin. You know that feeling na naiiyak ka lalo kasi alam mong ‘someone cares for you’ and ‘someone is out there to listen’ na parang kahit anong bigat ng problema mo marerealize mo na of all people who hates you, no matter how bad the day is, there is going to be that someone who will stay until the end and make the day a little bit lighter for you.

That’s what I felt when I was Paul’s arms. I wasn’t exaggerating, kahit sa kuya ko, parents ko, I never got a chance to hug them when I have a lot of problems. I was really the kind of ‘I’ll-just-keep-it-to-myself’ person.

I was the ‘closed book’ as they say, because I seldom open my feelings or rather problems to my closest friends nor family.

 

“Alam mo, crying will not make you look weak. It is a sign that you have given up already because you’re experiencing too much pain..” Paul explained while caressing my hair, and I am still facing his shirt which is soaked because of my tears.

“Crying is not that bad Gianne. You were born with it, we were born with it.. Crying is a sister of Happiness. These emotions keep things in this cruel world, balanced. Kung hindi ka iiyak, how will people know when to stop hurting you?” Tama siya. This has been one of my weaknesses, hindi ako nagpapakita na nasasaktan ako kaya siguro madaming tao ang nagaattempt na saktan ako kasi ang alam nila lagi akong masaya.

 

Kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap kay Paul narealize ko na baka lalong lumaki ang ulo ng lalaking ‘to. I wiped my tears and faced him “Alam mo ang drama mo, ang dami mong words of wisdom. Halika nga uminom na lang tayo. I just want to let this out.”

 

I saw his jaw drop, he was shocked. He was shrugging and looked at me in disbelief. “Iinom tayo? What the fuck Gianne. Are you on drugs? Are you fucking sick?” He cussed. Nilapat niya naman yung kamay niya sa noo ko to check kung may sakit ba talaga ako.