why die? *not updated often updated*

chapter 1

“hey summer get up” James shakes me as i crawl deeper into my blanket “no it’s the weekend” he stops shaking me and lays down next to me “my band is coming over and i want them to meet you” he smiled “why are you so awake at” i look at the clock “10 in the morning” i pull the covers off my face and under my chin “i went to the gym and cleaned my room” my eyes squint at him as he has opened the curtess. “i need a pee” i get up and walk to the bathroom “thanks for the information i really needed to know” James says bouncing down the stairs.

i brushed my teeth, washed my face and just freehand up since i did have a shower last night. {outfit at side} i threw on some summer clothes [haha i used my name, anyway] i put councillor on my scars and bruises (so James cant see) and rushed down the stairs i could her my brother taking to people and i was really nerves as many people don’t like me and i don’t even like me, i mean who would. i walked in ignoring them hoping that they wouldn’t notice me as i walked to the fridge “guys this is summer my sister” i herd James say i let out a big sigh nothing can ever go right for me can it. i shut the door of the fridge to be meet with 3 other boys i didn’t even bother examining there faces as they wouldn’t like me anyway they probably think i am ugly and worthless. “hey summer” a tall boy with blond hair give me a hug (i don’t know them as i have been in a boarding school for 2 years and only come out every’s so often to see my family) “your squishing me” i yelp “oi tris get of my sis”he let go and smiled at me “sorry” i looked to James and he give me a grin “it’s ok but…can i go know” i point to the door “first let me intrudes brad and con” i looked at the boy sitting next to my brother the one he said was con and i give him a week smile “con right i will try and remember” i taped my head i looked at the other boy and omg he is an angle sent from the heaven’s to tease me but i cant even think of him “hi brad” i waved and he smiled and waved back “I’m off for a walk James, i will take my phone” i called as i walk out the kitchen. i was putting a jacket on when “no your not…not on your own remember the last time when you lost your phone” actually i didn’t lose it 

flashback 

“aw look who it is little miss summer” a male voice called after me as i was sat on the swings in the park. i hear a few giggles from girls and boys but i didn’t dare look up. “please can you leave me alone”  a tear rolled down my cheek “aw look the baby is scared going to run home and tell big boy James o Wight he left you to go with his band didn’t he” he laughed “please just go” he piked me up and slammed me against a tree “DONT YOU EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO YOU BITCH” he yelled in my face. i am so scared, soon his hand comes in contact with my face and i fall to the floor. the people he was with just laughed as i cried helpless, i grabbed my phone from my pocket to call my mum to pick me up. he snatched it out my hand “gona call someone for help…to bad you don’t have a phone anymore” he threw it of the floor then jumper on it rapidly “NOOOOO!!!” my phone had all the nice pictures of me and James or mum or just memories in general “bye bye baby see you at school” they all walked away laughing and howling to themselves.

(at home)

“SUMMER WERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN I HAVE BEEN WORRIED SICK”  my dad yells coming towards me and engulfing me in a hug. “we have been trying to call you for the past hour” James says from behind my dad then examines my face “have you been crying? who did this sum?” he rubbed my cheek “i lost my phone in the park so i was crying over it just being silly” i weekly smiled and James now hugged me “well next time you go for a walk James will go with you” my dad smiled at James and James nodded 

flashback over

“ok fine but your not aloud to annoy me” he grins and i role my eyes “come on guys we’re going for a walk” he shouts to the others and they come rumbling in. as we left James locked the door as my parents aren’t in they are at work. we walked to the park and i just stayed in science while the boys messed on and telling jokes when we reached the park i walked over to the big tree i usually sit under and the boys were like children running round having fun in the park.

i looked over to my right to see Liam (the one who broke my phone) walk over but this time on his own “hello summer, being a loner i see” he laughed as i got up tying to walk away. “were are you going” he spat in my face as he pushed me up against the tree. his hand raising up my thigh “DONT YOU DARE TUTCH HER LIKE THAT” tris pulled him off of me. no please this is just going to make things word “and who are you?” he spat at tris “it docent matter who i am , what the hell do you think you were doing touching her like that? you have no right” soon the other boys came in and i could see James tensing up “whats going on?” he looked at tris “this perv was touching your sister and you could bluntly tell she didn’t want him to” his fist clenched and he gritted his teeth “you did what?” he tried to keep it calm in front of me. i ran to him “James calm down it’s ok nothing happened” i hugged him he loosened up a little but still was tense “if i ever see you near my sister agin i swear to god you will have no hand to touch her with” and then he pulled me away. this is all going to come back at me on monday “summer are you ok” James looked at me as we got to are street “yeah am fine” i weekly smiled “are you sure you don look it” he leaned down to my hight giving me  a hug “yes don’t worry about me” i pulled away from the hug “don’t ever let anyone do that to you again and if they do call me or one of the boys” he pointed to them and i nodded. “ok James, i love you bro” i smiled at him -you need to cut- i really need to stop thinking like this i have been clean for nearly a week as i have been with james spending time with him. i cant cut not know.