why die? *not updated often updated*

chapter 4

summer’s pov

it has been a week since brad told me he like’s me and he hasn’t acted upon it, in-fact he has stayed his distance and i don’t like it one bit. but i am so exited as today I’m getting my scars covered, what i mean is my dad found a tattoo shop that dose tattoos for 17 year old if accompanied by an adult and he agreed as long as they aren’t stupid tattoos that are worthless. James docent know because if he did he would tell me not to and it took me so long to get my dad and mum to agree to it but James would just change there mind. so while he is out of town recording i decided to stay at home and get them done.

we arrived at the shop and we walked in. a man with tattoos covering his arms and a lip perching with black hear stood at the desk “can i help you?” i let my dad talk “i made an appointment for my daughter summer mcvey?” he smiled “yeah we need you to fill out some forms and then we will get straight to it” we sat down in the weighting aria and he give us some forms. my dad filled them in and handed them back. “come this way” he motioned me into the room and i sat on the comfy seat “so we need to work out your tattoo, do you have anything in mind?” he smiled at me “um i was thinking more of a quote or a nice saying maybe” he handed me a pice of paper and many different coloured pens “here design it for me” i started with the design {at the side there is a pic of what will actually happen} i wrote ‘believe in yourself’ in black nice hand righting and then ‘stay strong <3’ in a nice dark blue righting “here this is what i was thinking” i handed to him and he smiled and went of making it into a stencil.

he drew the line’s on first. on my left i hand ‘believe in yourself’ and on my right i had ’stay strong <3’ i thought it looked so cool. he put the ink into the needle “you ready?” he sat down “yep”

james’s pov

i cant Wight to spend Christmas with my beautiful family i have missed them so much. i just hope sum hasn’t done anything to herself while i was away i want her fit and healthy. “James you ready to go?” joe smiled as we left the hotel “yeah, are you boy’s still staying at mine?” i looked at them and brad looked really happy when i asked that “yeah i would love to” i laughed at his enthusiasm “o god calm down your only staying at mine not going to see the flipping queen” i laugh and he turns red “sorry” i look at the others “what about you two?” we got into the car “yeah ok it would be lovely to see sum before Christmas” tris smiled they have really grown close and he has helped her a lot but i do worry sometimes that they are two close and she goes to him instead of me but she said that no matter who she goes to i am still her big brother and she would never chance that. it made me feel better “what about you con?” he looked up from his phone “um ok” he docent sound as happy as the others “what’s up dude?” i am sat in front of him and he is facing me “yeah do you fancy sum or something?” tris nudges him and i give him a ‘don’t talk about my sister like that’ look “sorry James” i looked back at con “no it’s just i seen…um nothing docent matter i will stay” he looked back at his phone which made me think what did he see?

when we arrived to my house my dad’s car had just pulled up “JAMSSSSSS” i heard the familiar sound of sum shout running to me at full speed and jumping into a hug “well someone is exited to see me?” i laugh and she lets go “are you going to show him summer?” my dad looked at her and she looked back at him. i started to get worried “why have you done?” i frantically rushed out “i got these” she showed me her wrist and they were rapped in cling film and faint black righting could just be seen. my eyes grew “you you go-got a tattoo” she nodded with a small smile “why? who said?” i looked at her “me, it’s my body James and i am not a little kid anymore” i felt hart broken she docent need me anymore “but why you don’t need them” i raised my voice “James stop it know, she got so upset about them scars of her’s she didn’t want to look at them anymore and thats why i agreed to it” my dad pointed at me and sum eyes filled “but she didn’t need to go and ruin her wrists with tattoos at such a young age dad” i didn’t even relies that summer had ran in crying “ARE YOU HAPPY KNOW, LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE DONE and this is why she didn’t want to tell you. cant you see she didn’t like the way they looked all the bad memories they bright back” my dad spat then running in after her. i looked back at the boys and they had there eyes on me “you guy’s agree with me right?” tris stepped forward “actually no, its her body and your dad is wright them scars bring back horrifying memories for her” i nodded and a tear fell down my cheek what have i don’t to my sister. we are not as perfect as the fan’s see us as. if i am not even a good brother how am i even going to be a good remodel for the fans?   

A/N: sorry its been so long