Logan Paul Saved My Life :)

Chapter 16

.... ALEXAS POV....

"Do you see a future with me?" Logan asked. I was shocked to hear him ask me that question because i never thought there would ever be a chance in hell that Logan would ever have feelings for a girl like me. I sat there speechless and failed to get anything out of my mouth.

It took me 5 minutes to comprehend what Logan said and I was still in utter shock. Logan's facial expressions changed from hopeful to devastated, he got up and walked away in the opposite direction. "Forget I ever said anything" he mumbled as he walked away. That's when everything hit me like a ton of bricks but i still couldn't say anything. Logan got in the front seat of the car and kept his head down. I jumped off the bonnet of the car and got in the passenger seat.

Logan started driving home after I had buckled my seatbelt tightly around my body. I stared out the window taking in the views of Hollywood but it was an extremely awkward silence between Logan and I the whole way home.

We arrived at the apartment after a half an hour drive. It was still awkward between us and Logan avoided me at all costs all the way up to the apartment then when we arrived he immediately went downstairs to his room and slammed his door causing Maverick to squawk.

It had been 3 hours since Logan went to his room and it was almost lunch time so I was thinking of what I could order from Post mates for lunch. I decided instead of ordering something I was going to make a homemade meal for Logan and I, hopefully impressing Logan and breaks the awkward tension.

I found a StirFry recipe online and got started with making the meal.

I finally finished cooking the meal surprising myself with how well I did at making and preparing this meal. All I had to do now was take it to Logan. I grabbed the bowl and made my way down stairs to Logan's room and stood outside his door contemplating whether this was such a good idea. I gave his door a suddle knock getting no response, I then gave a harder knock just in case he didn't hear the last but still failing to get any sort of response. I gave up knocking so my next idea was to call or message him from my phone.

I went upstairs to get my phone that had been sitting on the bench since I last spoke to my mom. I opened my lock screen to only realize that mom is supposed to arrive tomorrow morning. Although that is important I was more worried and concerned about Logan. I unlocked my phone and Brought up Logan's number and called him.... No reply. I then sent him a message.

ALEXA- Logan I know you don't want to be around me at the moment but please just open your door at least. I don't expect you to reply or have a conversation but I owe it to you to explain myself so please just hear what I have to say.

I left the message for 5 minutes and went back downstairs to find Logan's door was open, I quietly walked in and Logan was laying on the furthest side of his bed with his head in his pillow. I carefully and gently sat on the end of his bed and put his lunch on his side table. "I made you lunch, it's my own Stirfy. I figured you might be hungry. I also just want to say I'm so sorry" I said quietly being considerate that if I was loud it might shock him. "Lex its okay and you really didn't have to make me this, don't be sorry I understand I should've kept my mouth shut but now I know where I stand" Logan replied taking the food and looking at me. I then realized that he had been crying, his eyes were puffy and bloodshot and his cheeks were puffy, red and tear stained.

"Logan no stop, the reason I didn't say anything is because I was shocked. I used to dream of meeting you because you were my idol and you had this way about life that I absolutely adored, your personality was amazing, actually it was and still is perfect. Don't even get me started on your adorable by chochy looks including your gorgeous smile. And me.... I was just a stupid, self-conscious, depressed and lonely girl who had no life, no future, and no friends sitting behind a screen absorbing the only happiness I could get from your videos, you were my escape from the dark world I lived in. I never dreamt out let alone ever thought I would have a chance of having you in my life, but this is more than my dream come true. The day I met you, you were so nice and caring towards me which made me feel so important in the world. Out of any girl of the millions of girls you could have picked to hang out with its me and for that I feel like the only girl in the world. You became much more than my idol, you became my purpose in life. I couldn't live without you and I have no idea where I'd be or what I'd be doing with my life if I didn't have you in my life. But the answer to your question is yes. I couldn't see my life now without you my LogieBear" I felt like I just made a public speech on how I genuinely feel. I started to become emotional realizing how daunting it is facing up to somebody how you feel deep down, tears feel from my eyes.