Shawn Mendes imagines♡

drunk

I'm sitting on my bad waiting for Shawn to come home. He's always in studio or with friends and we didn't spend much time together lately.

I went downstairs to get some food. Normally I wait for Shawn so we can eat together but it was already 11:35pm and I'm starving so I decided to eat alone.

Some hours later I laid in my bed and starred at the place where normally Shawn laid but today he wasn't there. I started to get worried because he always writes me a message if he come home later then 00:00 but it already was 1:23am and he still wasn't at home.

I heard someone open the door and immediately knew it was Shawn because nobody else has the key to our house.

I walked downstairs and saw him standing there with red puffy eyes but I knew he didn't cry... he was drunk again.

"Come Shawn time to get some sleep" I just said and grapped his hand but he took his hand back. "No!" He yelled and I become kinda scared. He never sounded so angry. Lately he come drunk home very often but he never yells at me. Normally he's crazy and funny when he's drunk but today he's just frightening.

"C'mon Shawn you're drunk" I mumbled and started walking back upstairs but he hold me back. "I can decided what I want to do and I don't want to sleep rn" he said and I sighed

He walked into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. He took a bottle of bear and opened it. "No Shawn you can't drink more alcohol. You're already drunk" I said and took the bottle off his hand. "Give it back" he yelles but I didn't have him. I don't want him the get even more drunk.

He walked closer to me and I could smell his breath which totally smelled like alcohol. "You little slut. Give me the bottle back" He said and I felt my heart breaking into a million pieces by the words he used. You little slut. The words repeated in my head over and over again.

I tried to escape him but he walked towards to me till I felt the cold wall behind my back. I looked deep into his eyes. His eyes were filled with anger. I closed my eyes I was scared... scared by my own boyfriend.

I felt blood running out of my nose after Shawn's fist hit me in my face. I let the bottle fall on the ground and ran into the bedroom. I held my face in pain and slowly realized what happened right now. Shawn hit me.

"Y/n?" I heard Shawn's voice behind the door. I tried to hide in the corner of the room. I was scared he would do it again. He slowly opened the door when my eyes met his.

"Y/n" he said and walked closer to me. I closed my eyes and prepared myself about what happen next. I hide my face and just hoped he wouldn't hit me again.

"I- I'm sorry" He said and I slowly lifted up my head because I heard his weak voice. I know he wouldn't do it again.

"I'm so so sorry" He whispered. "It's okay" I said. "No, no it's not. I'm a monster. I hit you" he mumbled into his hands. "Let me see" he said and tried to put my hand away from my face but I didn't let him. I don't want him to see me like this even it's his fault I look like this.

"It's okay Shawn" I tried to hold my tears back because it actually hurts really bad. "Nothing is okay y/n. Let me see what I did to you" he said and tears were running down his cheeks. I slowly took my hands away and let him see what he did. "Oh my gosh" he whispered. "I- I'm a m- monster. I'm so so sorry y/n" he said and some more tears left his eyes.

I stood up and just pulled Shawn into a thight hug. It was probably not right but I couldn't see him like this. "No Shawn you're not a monster. You're drunk" I tried to calm him down. "That's no excuse" he whined. "I hurt you. I hurt my baby girl" he added.

"Come y/n. I clean your face" he said and grapped my hand. We walked to the bathroom and Shawn turned the light on.

I looked into the mirrow and just saw what he did to me. I had bruises all over my eyes and nose. Blood were all over my face and it hurted like hell.

"I'm so so sorry y/n" he said again and started to clean my face softly. "It's okay Shawn really. Just- just promise you won't ever do it again." I said and he nodded heavily. "Never again. I promise and I promise I will never ever drink so much again" he said and I felt his breath against my skin.

"I love you y/n" and I'm sorry what I did to you. I promise I won't ever do it again. I don't even understand why you say it's okay. I mean I hit you and I called you a slut. I swear I didn't meant it. I love you so much" he said and another tear left his eye. I swiped it away and smiled at him. "I love you too Shawn and it's okay because I do love you. It just shouldn't happen again." I said and pressed his lips against mine.
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