Shawn Mendes imagines♡

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"Shawn?" I said trough the phone. "You wanted to talk to me?" I asked. "Yes I want" he answered and my heart beat became faster and faster.

"So what's wrong baby?" I asked nervous. "You know I'm almost never at home because I'm always on tour and when I'm home I'm in the stu-" he said but I cut him off.

"No Shawn if you want to do what I think I won't let you" I said with tears in my eyes.

Yes I know Shawn isn't much at home but I love him and I couldn't live without him.

"Y/n listen this relationship doesn't work" he said and tears were running down my face. "It does" I almost whispered. "It doesn't because you don't love me enough" I added.

"No I do love you y/n But you deserve someone who's there for you and who is there for you every day and not only for some days after I was three month away" he said and it feels like my heart brakes into a million pieces.

"Shawn when I fell in live with you I knew this wouldn t be a easy relationship but I agreed to this and I can live with it. But I know I couldn't live without you" I said still trying to save this.

"Y/n please doesn't make this harder than it already is" he begged but I can't let him go like this. "I never thought you would break up with me. And I never thought you do it over the phone" I cried.

"I'm sorry y/n" he said but I could tell he isn't sorry at all. "If thats what you want, do it. But only that you know it hurts and it destroys me" I said and I know this words are one of the last I said to Shawn.

"Bye y/n" he said and I could tell he's also crying. "I love you and I will always do. Good bye Shawn" I said but then I realized he already hung up.

I cried into my pillow and screamed. I couldn't take this pain. Shawn was all I had and now he's gone. Forever. He will always stay in my heart.

I went into the bathroom and took the pills I had there when I couldn't sleep. I opened the package and took a few too much. Enough to fall asleep. Enough to fall asleep forever.

I swallowed the pills and laid down in my bed. Now I just need to wait till I close my eyes. I decided to write a little letter for Shawn.

Hey Shawn,
If you read this I'm probably dead. I told you I can't take this pain. You was all I had and now you're gone. Please don't think it's your fault because it isn't. Maybe a bit but I think it's just me. I'm to weak to live and I always was but you were the one who kept me alive but now you're gone.
You should know I still love you doesn't matter if you do or not. Please don't be sad, live your life and make your dreams come true.
I love you Shawn♡

In love y/n

I wrote the words and some tears dropped onto the paper. I felt how my belly hurts more and more. I took the letter and laid it on my belly after I laid down in my bed.

I closed my eyes and screamed because of the pain. I don't know what hurts more my belly or my heart.

"Y/n y/n can you hear me?" I heard someone saying I knew it was Shawn but I couldn't open my eyes. I couldn't do anything. Am I dead?

"she is artificially ventilated we don't know if she survives" I heard someone saying.

"Y/n please don't die I love you I'm so sorry" I heard Shawn crying. I still couldn't say something or move. I wanted to hug shawn I want to say him it isn't his fault.

I know I'll die. I saw this bright light. Everything faded away. All I could hear was a screaming Shawn and a loud tone. I know I'm dead.

Everything become quite and I faded away in the bright light.
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This is really different but I tried haha❤