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Diary entry 2: So Lost

Dear Diary,

This week has been really ... Interesting. A lot of things been happening between Brett and me. Things that make me confused and feel so lost. In the begging of the year I said "I have to get over him and that I will" but now I don't think I can. Not only did he show concern (sort of) other stuff happened too.

For example, one day it was raining and we stayed inside the auditorium instead of going outside. I was with the B-76 clique talking and all of a sudden a pretzel hit me so I turned around to see he threw it out of curiosity. I saw Brett with a bag of pretzels and some kid yelled "Your boyfriend threw the pretzel" Brett then like slouched in his chair shaking his head. He looked sort of embarrassed it was just so weird so afterwards I just turned back around.

Then one day else I was eating lunch with B-76 girls and one of my friends gave me and Haley cookies. Haley took one and threw it and Brett who was at another table caught it. The cookie was shaped like a heart. Haley blamed it on me and said I threw it and that Brett "caught my heart". Ugh and he believed it ... I know cause I turned around quickly to see his reaction to what Haley said and he was like hiding behind some boy.

Another example is when we went outside one day. I was with Ariel and her group and I guess you could of said we are now on ok terms. They were planning zap. Zap is basically a game where your dared to ask people out. They dared me to ask out Brett so of course I protested but Nicole went over to Brett and held him so he couldn't run away. Sherri Chase dragged me over there against my will (kind of) . He said "Noooooo" but he was still smiling when Nicole told him I was going to ask him. It was really weird. I couldn't stop giggling at first and then I couldn't stop smiling at him when they were telling me to do it. I refused to talk. I guess it was taking long due to me being stubborn and shy so the rest of the girls came and Ariel asked. Sadly he said no.

All of these just happened when we were at lunch.

One day we had gym last period and had to leave our bags on the floor outside the gym and I was looking for mine not realizing I was next to Brett. Morgan Palmer pushed me into his arms. He pulled away after awhile.

Another day in gym we were sitting on the floor and he kept backing up into my leg. To be honest he made me feel really hot. He finally realized and moved. Piper thought he was violating but I don't really think so cause I'm pretty sure he could of felt my leg on his back.

Honestly I don't know what to do or think

I still feel really awkward around him and I think he feels awkward too

An example is when Jason wanted to sit with Alice. They started dating for about two week so everyone wanted "Jace" to sit with each other. Jason and Brett are like best friend and they are usually always together. Everyone else from their crew came except Brett.

I honestly don't wanna like him.

I wish all my feelings would disappear

Or at least I can try to hide it

As said in frozen " Conceal, don't feel

Put on a show..."

So I guess that what I have to do...

I mean I'm in drama so I guess I can hide my feelings for now till they are truly gone

I'm so sick of this drama

Hey guys sorry this chapter is so short the next one will definitely be longer. If you like the story please vote or add comments on what you think . I <3 you and keep reading !! ~ lay