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Diary entry 3 : is it over

Dear Diary,

Well school is almost over and no progress has been made in my relationship with Brett but I don't know how to feel anymore...

I still like Brett ... A lot but ...

There's this boy in my class he's always so annoying . He calls me feisty , he flirts with a lot of girls, he's cocky and is just really irritating

His name is Jeff Brice.

He of course is friends with Brett and they have their crew

Jeff is just so irritating he keeps calling me Ave-baby or baby or baby girl

It's annoying but... Maybe I like it .. Just a little

He also been in my dreams a few time

I told Ariel this but she thinks I may have a tiny bit of feelings for Jeff but I don't know

I mostly think it's cause of the nick name

He also gave a nickname to my ex friend Mercy or should I call her mer-mer

I'm so done her cause she is a liar, promise breaker and is a fake friend

Ok so our friend dared me to do something involving her crush so mercy said that she would say she dared me instead of our friend. She then goes around saying I did it all on my own and say that we're not friends.

Mercy is fake and I can't deal with people like that to be honest

If you don't like me don't sit there pretending were friends and everything's good

I actually should of known she wasn't my friend... She just always tries to exclude me.

On every trip she always asked Piper to sit with her meaning i would have to sit alone. Most of my true friends weren't in this class but Piper is. She's probably is my only true friend in that class. And mercy always tried to make her leave when I was talking to Piper which gets me so mad. Mercy is just ugh .

She hates Jeff so I don't even get why Jeff bothers with her

Besides mer-mer is such a stupid nick name

He would never like her so I don't know why Jessie even dared to call Jeff her boyfriend

He literally called me his bestfriend, baby girl , baby or ave-baby all the time so mercy can hop of his dick

Don't get me wrong

I DO NOT LIKE HIM

I like Brett...

I know I can't have Brett but I keep hoping he'll come around

I'm so hooked on him but I need to let go

So I vow to myself that I will focus on who I am

Not who I'm with

Focus on my future

Not the past

Focus on what I like

Not who I like

Focus on what I'm doing

Not who I am doing

This summer is a way to set my self free

Cause liking Brett was a disease it brought me pain and destroyed me. I need a cure from him and I know a couple of ways to do that

1- express your feelings

2- find a hobby

3- help others

4- get a new crush intrest

5- don't let others run your life

Step one is easy . I can write stories express my feelings. Besides it sounds fun

Step two I can draw clothes or learn to skate board or take hip-hop dance or do something like those

Step three is easy cause I can help by babysitting kids or replanting trees. Basically anything to help out my planet and the people on it

Step 4 and step 5 is gonna take some time. Being the sort of shy person I am will make things difficult

However I will try these over the summer and sees how life turns out