Infinitely Unaware

Insomniac

I feel deprived.
Brain dead.
It all just seems like my life is happening before my eyes
and I'm just a bystander watching.
That's all I can do; watch.
What else can I do? It's all unfolding in front of my eyes.
What am I supposed to do?

My body feels like I haven't slept in days,
but that's all I ever do.
Sleep.
I sleep to avoid my problems,
I sleep to it ignore my sadness,
I sleep because there's nothing else I have the energy to do.

I have no more purpose.
What's life without a purpose?
Life without a purpose is boring,
uneventful,
and infuriating.
Who wants to play the same game over and over again with the same end result?
Then there would be no point in even playing that game.

And I no longer want to play the game of life.