You are the reason I feel unworthy. Unworthy of love, affection, and happiness. And now I lay here crying while you lay there happy. It's been 2 hours and the tears won't stop. My eyes are puffy, red and they hurt from crying so much. I'm so hurt, so tired and sick of you degrading me. You treat me as if I'm just a nuisance, a piece of unwanted gum that's just on the bottom of your shoe. You make me feel like a piece of trash on the side of the road. So thank you. Thank you so much for lowering the little self esteem I had, for taking away the small speck of happiness I once had. Thank you for destroying all the progress I had. I was getting better, I really was. But now, I can't help but to think the worst thoughts I have ever thought. You make me want to fucking die. I can't take this anymore. Mothers are supposed to unconditionally shower their kids with love and stories of them as a baby. But all you've given me was a tsunami of insults and beatings. You hate me and you've made the very clear.
So thanks for everything Mom, I love you too.
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Infinitely Unaware
PoetryThey never noticed, They never cared. I was silently crying, dying, breaking. +
