Yoongi opened his eyes slowly. He blinked a few times, until his eyes started to adjust to the darkness in his room. He sighed when he realised it's only two thirty in the morning, and looked around, trying to find the reason that woke him up from his sleep.
He didn't wait too long until a soft cry broke the silence in his room. He sat up, trying to see his roommate through the book case that divided their room into two, but he couldn't make it, he could only see that his roommate's desk lamp is turned on.
Slowly, without making any sound, he got up from his bed, walked and stopped beside the book case, watching his roommate silently. He tried to make his presence unnoticed, didn't want to startle his roommate.
The scene in front of him broke his heart even more. He could see his roommate crying, shoulder shaking while hugging his knees and burying his head in his knees.
The younger boy wanted to approach his roommate, but he couldn't. His anti-social life didn't help at all. He didn't know what to do, he didn't know what he should do to calm his roommate that fortunately started to calm down, and his cry turned into a silent sobs. All he could do was just standing there.
It's the third time this week that his roommate had woken him up because of his nightmares, and also the third time he didn't do anything to calm his roommate down.
"Hyung-nim, what's wrong?" he whispered to himself.
Contrary to his flat face, his heart breaks everytime he saw his roommate -that usually loud, confident, always bickering, and acting like a child- in that state.
Yoongi walked back and hide behind his book case when his roommate lifted his head, and lied down under his blanket, curled up to a ball. The only source of light in that room had dissapeared after that.
Yoongi walked back to his bed after his eyes adjusted in the darkness. He lied down without making any sound, and back to his dream, hoping that his roommate will be back to his usual self.
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"Hyuuung! Come on!"
Seokjin ran out from his room, hair still wet. He woke up late, and almost forgot to make a breakfast for his members. All of them, besides him, are having their own individual schedule.
"Hurry, hyung! We're hungry!" Jimin shouted from the couch, looking at his eldest hyung.
"Yah! I'm not your maid!" Seokjin shouted back while hitting him with the couch pillow, made the younger laugh.
"I'm hungrrryyy," Jimin whined cutely to his hyung.
"Yeah yeah, I know," Seokjin talked back while walking to the kitchen and starting to prepare their breakfast.
Yoongi internally sighed in relief to see that his hyung is back to his normal self. But his worry came back after remembering what happened after the previous nightmares. Seokjin will be back to his normal self in front of the member in the morning later, but he will cry himself to sleep.
"We're out!"
"Wait! Namjoon-ah! Hobi-ah! Your breakfast!" Seokjin shouted while peeking his head from the kitchen door.
"We're late," Namjoon told him, waiting for Hoseok to finish tying up his shoes.
"Wait a minute," Seokjin told them and went back to the kitchen. He put the pancake into two boxes, and brought them to his two rapper that were standing at the front door, waiting patiently.
"Thanks a lot, hyung," Hoseok smiled to his eldest hyung while receiving the boxes, but his smile turned into a frown when Namjoon pulled him harshly, and both of them left the dorm.
Seokjin sighed. Namjoon could be very harsh when he's in rush. He walked back to the kitchen to bring pancakes to the dining table.
"Jiminie! Taehyungie! Kookie-ah! Yoongi-ah! Breakfast!" Seokjin shouted. His maknae line ran to the dining table and started filling their plate, when Yoongi walked lazily to the dining table.
After his dongsaeng's plate already full with pancakes, he went back to his room.
"Hyung? You're not gonna eat?" Taehyung asked his hyung, confused of why his big eater hyung suddenly skips his breakfast.
"No, I already ate the burnt one," Seokjin lied and smiled at his younger's concern.
He lost his appetite. After "That Incident", he didn't have any reason to live anymore. He tried to kill himself a couple of times, but he couldn't. The thought of having no one that will taking care of his younger memberes always succeed on preventing him from killing himself.
He sighed and laid himself down on his bed, looking up to the ceiling with nothing in mind. Tears started to making its way down his cheeks, but his face still remains the same. Flat. He felt disgusted, he felt useless, he felt that he didn't deserve to be in this world.
While all of his members are busy with their individual schedule, he just stayed in his room, tried to write some lyrics, even though he knew that they will reject it. But that's the only thing that could distract him from "That Incident" which already tore his life apart.
"Hyung, we'll be leaving now," Jimin peeked his head inside his older hyung's room. Seokjin lifted his head and smile to the younger, knew that in that distance, Jimin couldn't see that he's actually crying silently.
"Okay, take care. Tell me where you guys will be having a dinner," Seokjin told him. Jimin just nodded his head while returning the older's smile, and went out to the front door after closing his hyung's room's door.
Taehyung, Jungkook and Yoongi yelled their goodbye from the front door before leaving, and Seokjin yelled back a 'take care' words.
After he heard the front door closed, he couldn't hold his tears anymore, and let them fall while he sobs loudly, finally being able to cry after all of his members left.
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