A Letter for Mark || Markbam

10th Chapter

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Bambam's POV

The days turned into weeks. Our schedule was hectic: tv appearances to promote our coming album, interviews for magazines, dance practice of selected songs, pictorials, fan meets, shooting the mv and teasers.

We usually arrived at the dorm, tired and weary so what 's left is to have a quick dinner and hit the bed. Everybody just wanted to go to sleep at the end of a busy day.

I hardly had time to talk to Mark except if I need to, like, if Jinyoung asks me to call him for our meals, or who uses the bathroom first, or wake him up if he overslept.
Both of us were too tired and sleep was so precious. We both needed to recharge.

I didn't get the chance to think of my feelings for him. But it doesn't mean that they're gone. They're still there, lying dormant in my heart.

But I was glad I can take control of my feelings now. I usually hang out with Yugyeom. He has become my best friend.

One early evening on a rare day that we were free from work, as Gyeom and I sat on his bed playing games, Mark peeked through the door. He was dressed like he was going out and I was not mistaken as he said:

"Hey, Bam, I'm going out to meet some friends. I told you so you won't wonder where I am."

"Ok." I went back to my game.

"Mark hyung, are you going on a date?" Yugyeom asked him.

"Well, kind of. I'm meeting Matthew and his group. Jackson's coming with me."

Then, he left.

I tried to ignore the empty feeling inside me. So, he even asked Jackson hyung to come with him. He did not even bother to ask me. I recalled the two occasions before when he asked me to tag along when he met some old friends from home.

When my mom and siblings visited me last year, it was him who accompanied me to meet them.

And when his parents visited him, he also asked me to come with him. Now, he took Jackson hyung with him instead of me.

"Hey, bam, you're dead."

I looked at the screen to see that my game's over and my score sucks.

"Yuggie, I don't want to play anymore."

"Huh? Why? We just started."

"I'm not in the mood suddenly."

"So what do you want to do?"

"I'm going to my room now and take a nap. Just wake me up for dinner."

"Oh, ok."

I stood up and left a puzzled Yugyeom. I didn't go directly to our room. I intended to go to the balcony but I saw the door ajar and heard soft voices.

Curious, I took a peek and was surprised to see Jaebum and Youngjae in each other's arms. Then, Jaebum hyung kissed Youngjae's forehead and said something. His voice was so soft I couldn't understand it.

I decided to give them privacy and went to my room. It seemed like everything's turned out good for Youngjae. I remembered our conversation from weeks ago. We never had a chance to talk again.

So, I was right to presume that it was Jaebum hyung that he likes. Good for him coz it seemed Jaebum likes him, too.

I sighed. I took my journal from the box and went to the last entry. I hadn't been able to write for a long time. Partly, because I was very busy.. and partly because I no longer wanted to. But now that I am being emotional again, I had the urge to jot down what I'm feeling.