A Letter for Mark || Markbam

21st Chapter

Hi guys! Well, I know I said I'll publish tomorrow but the writing bug bit me, I was able to finish this chapter.. so I hope you're happy with that 😊..

I think it's Jinyoung out there. So hard to find the appropriate pic for this chapter 😁😁😁😁 Anyway, let's continue..
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Bambam's POV

"Sound familiar?" He smirked as he looked at me.

I looked away. My heart was in my throat. I wish the ground would open and swallow me just to get away from him. I felt my ears and face getting hot. I was so sure that I was as red as tomato.

"So, Bam, when will you give me your letters?"

Oh Lord! What do I do? This is so embarrassing.

I wanted to stand and run away from him but I was so stupefied, I feel like I lost all strength to move. Mark had finally caught me and I really didn't know what to say. I felt tears rising and my chest getting tight. I couldn't look at him. I just bowed my head. I was simply at a loss for words.

Still he went on..

"Why do you do things that will make me fall for you more? You don't know the effort I make just to be able to calm myself in your presence. And there you go being extra sweet today. I have decided to start avoiding you as possibly as I can because I could not help but like you more. Don't give me false hopes. I know you just consider me as a brother and friend, I shouldn't be feeling elated with your random acts of sweetness. Do you realize by now that I have fallen for you? Why do you look at me that way? What's in your eyes that when I look at them I get hypnotized?"

By that time, I felt my whole body numb. I just wanted to disappear.
How on earth was he able to decode my letters?

"So, Bam, my eyes hypnotized you?" He chuckled.

Oh my God. My heart was hammering like crazy.

"Hey, Bam. Cat got your tongue?" I could sense the laughter in his voice.

He continued..

"Hey, Mark hyung! What are you doing right now? Are you having a good time with your friends? You did not even ask me to come with you. Mark hyung, I miss you."

He went on.

"I really miss you, Mark. I miss the smiles that you used to give me. I miss your laughter. But what should I do? If I come close to you again, I am afraid you will see through me. I am afraid that you will laugh at me.. and worse you will hate me. So I guess, I just have to keep this distance between us..."

After reading, he continued to chuckle. I glanced at him and saw his shoulders shaking. I wasn't able to hold back my tears. I hugged my knees and bowed my head, letting the tears flow freely.

What else could I do? I was already caught. At least he didn't get mad. He just laughed. Just laughed at me. And it hurt like hell.

"So, Bam, when are you confessing to me? Or will you just write those letters and let them fade in that notebook you keep in a box."

I couldn't say anything at all.  In fact, if embarrassment could kill, I would have died that moment. I heard him speaking again.

"Song ideas, huh? Well, they can actually be love song ideas."

His words stabbed my heart. I thought I have to at least say something to defend myself.  Anyway, what's wrong with falling in love? It's not like, you could have your feelings under control.

My head still bowed, I took a deep breath and gathered my courage and speak, albeit in a very soft voice.

"H-hyung, they're personal. I have no intention to give them to you... I was trying to forget  those feelings and.."

I wasn't able to continue my words because he suddenly hugged me tight.

"Look at me, Bam."

I kept my head down. My tears were unstoppable.

"Aish! Bam, look at me!" This time he said it firmly. He pushed my knees down and lifted my face towards him. He saw my tears. An indescribable emotion flashed in his eyes. Then, he held my head and pulled it on his shoulder.

"Why are you crying Bam? Is it because of what I found out?"

I felt his hand rubbing my back. My tears continuously cascaded on my cheeks.

"Hush, Bammie. Stop crying. I'm not mad at you." He said softly.

"B-but y-you were l-laughing at me.."
I managed to say while catching my breath.

"I was laughing because I am so happy and you were such an idiot. I have been sticking to you like a fly on a flypaper, but all you do is get flustered. You wouldn't even relax when you're with me. I have been clinging to you like a vine as Yugyeom had said.. but you wouldn't open up to me. You opened up to Youngjae and cried your eyes out to him. You often avoided me that I have to insist myself on you and find ways to get your attention."

He paused, as if waiting for me to speak but I continued my silence.

"Do you remember that night I asked you why you cried and you didn't answer me?"

I nodded but remained speechless, eyes downcast.

"Bammie, what do I do with you?"

He lifted my chin and gently kissed my lips. It lasted for awhile, his lips probing mine asking for a response. I couldn't help but kiss him back. My stomach was tight with nervousness and excitement. Then he disconnected our lips, pinched my nose and laughed.

"My idiot Bammie!"

"H-hyung.."

"What?"

"How were you able to read them?"

"Remember that time when I asked you to translate your notes to me and you refused?"

I nodded.  He showed me some pictures in his gallery and there I saw my exact words but in Korean.

"Well, after that, I waited for the chance that you weren't in our room. I took a few pictures and had them translated. Do you want me to read more?"

"No! No! Hyung, stop it please. I' m dying of embarrassment already."

He laughed.

"So, who translated them for you?"

"Nickhun."

"Nickhun hyung??!"

Gosh, I was so going to kill that friend of mine! Nickhun hyung knew what I felt for Mark and I made him promise that it 'd be a secret between us but he exposed me.

"I am so humiliated..." I said sulkily.

"Why? Does it shame you to feel that way for me?"

I avoided his eyes.

"So, what you said in the letters, are they all true?

I nodded shyly. He hugged me tighter and kissed my forehead.

"H-hyung? What are we now?"

"What do you want us to be?"

"Hyung! You're so unfair! You always make me answer my question."

He laughed.

"Do you really love me, Bam?"

He was looking at me with those magnetic eyes where I could get lost in forever, waiting for my answer.

Mark! Are you so dense? Why are you still asking me when you already know?

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Well, guys, I 'm gonna leave you hanging for a while coz I really don't want this story to end hahaha.

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Date: December 29, 2017