A Letter for Mark || Markbam

22nd Chapter

Bambam's POV

"So, Bam, do you really love me?" He repeated.

"Hyung! You already know it!" I said and hid my face on his chest.

He laughed.

"But I want to hear it from you.." he said childishly.

"You know I do."

"Say the words."

"I love you, Mark hyung." I said shyly.

He hugged me tighter and whispered,

"I love you, too, Bam."

I suddenly turned my head up at him. Still unsure of what I heard.

"You.. love me, too?"

He chuckled as he fondly looked into my eyes.

"You, idiot! You're still clueless, aren't you? I love you and everything about you. I love it when I make you blushed or shy or flustered. I love it when you couldn't look into my eyes. I love it more when you look into my eyes. I love hearing your voice and your laughter. I love your lips and I always want to kiss them. I love sleeping beside you, I love hugging you and feeling your warmth.. I love just being with you."(A/N Is it too cheesy for you? 😁 I was actually cringing while writing this.😊)

I marveled at his words. All the pain in my heart gone in an instant replaced by so much happiness, I felt like I would burst. My tears surfaced, this time they were tears of joy.

He kissed me again before wiping my tears with his fingers. Then, he wrapped his arm around me once more and looked out to the sea before speaking again.

"You know what? I missed you, too. Didn't you realize how I stick with you most of the times? But what do you do? You always go to Yugyeom to avoid me. Even if I didn't tell you how I feel, I have shown them to you through actions but you seem blind to all my signals."

"Hyung, I don't want to assume things and I also don't want to ask you about it coz you always make fun of me. And the signals you're telling me? Well, it didn't come to me as expressions of your feelings. I just thought that you're playing with my emotions or testing me... I don't know."

"See what happens when you fail to communicate? You should have opened up to me, Bam. Between the two of us, you are the outspoken one, so if there's something that you have felt, I was expecting you to talk about it first."

"I'm afraid to be rejected, hyung."

He gazed at me and smiled.

"How do you know I'll reject you? Didn't I give enough hints? Even Yuggie knows that there's something special between us."

" He does?"

"Yes. Didn't you notice how he often tease us?" He chuckled then continued.

"Well, I'm glad I dared to take those pictures. I didn't know why, but when I joked that you're writing about me and saw your reaction, I was suddenly piqued to have them translated."

I lightly hit his chest.

"Aw! Why? If I haven't done that, I doubt if we'll come to this point."

I had no answer to that.

After sometime of comfortable silence I asked him,

"Hyung... if you weren't able to read my letters or I didn't confess to you, what would you have done?"

"Hmm, nothing?"

"What!? You mean you would really wait for me to confess?"

"Yes. You know me, Bam. I am not good with words and I also didn't know what you feel. What I know is that I am happy with what we have. So if you didn't confess, or if I didn't read your letters, I would just go along with how we are. I was afraid to admit my feelings to you and get hurt. I did try to give you hints, though. But you were always so moody, I couldn't understand you."