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Chapter 14

Alexandra Teller

"Are you still having those episodes, Alex?" Dr. Larson asked me as she sat across from me with her usual clipboard in her hands. A titanium pen danced in between her fingers as she awaited my answer.

"Yeah." I grabbed my box of Marlboros and slipped one in between my lips.

"You know the rules, Teller. No smoking." She scolded.

"I'm just holding it. Jesus." I cursed. "My last episode was maybe a week ago? That was the last time I actually slept."

"You haven't slept in a week?" She choked.

"Nope. Keegan was raped at a party, and I'm still worried about her." I explained.

"I'm sorry, Alex. Is she alright?" Dr. Larson looked down while she wrote notes.

"She's okay. She's been seeking shelter in one of our transplants. Luke."

"Mmm." She muttered. "Are you okay with this?"

"Yes....?" I answered. "No. I don't know, maybe?"

"You're not sure?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know. He's handsome as all hell, but I'm afraid he's using her. There's an age gap there, and I don't want her getting hurt."

Dr. Larson nodded understandingly. "You're just going to have to let things take their path, Alex. Tell me about this episode the other night."

"He was there again. Except this time I was on the bike with him. I died with him." I whispered, while staring at the floor.

"Why do you think you still have these dreams, or nightmares?"

I chuckled lowly. "Pent up anger towards him. He left me with Keegan. But my subconscious can't let him go. I can't let him go."

"You're still grieving. That happens. But like I've been saying, you have to find the power from within to open up about him. Tell Keegan all of the good times, all of the bad times. Don't rely on Tig, or Chibs to tell your daughter the things her mother should."

I look at the clock. It's been an hour since the session started. "Okay. Thanks, Dr. Larson."

"You're welcome. I'll see you next week."

*****

Keegan Rose Teller

Luke was in the driver's seat of my car, and my head was laying on his shoulder. We were parked on the hilltop over looking Charming. It was nearing 2 a.m. and I've never felt more secure.

"Why're are we up here?" I wondered out loud. My voice disrupted whatever song by Johnny Cash.

He shrugged as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders. "Because I wanted to take you up here."

I smiled and closed my eyes. I took a sharp breath. "I like you Luke. I like you a lot." I felt him relax a bit. His arm lifted from my shoulders. I sat up, and faced him. My hand rose to his chin, where he basically melted as my thumb lightly slid across his bottom lip. "C'mon, Luke." I whispered. He looked up to me, flashing his gorgeous blue eyes.

I leaned in, slowly. Luke took me by the hips, and pulled me onto him, to which I yelped with surprise. I was now straddling his hips. I kissed him gently, but full of passion. One of his hands were on the back of my neck, and the other was in my hair. "You don't know how long I've been wanting to do that." He whispered.

I giggled, and kissed him again, this time harder. He grunted as he leaned the chair back. "Are we doing this?" I asked.

"Only if your okay with it, babydoll." His southern accent made my heart race pick up, and I nodded quickly.

*****
"Come to Texas with me." Luke whispered as I laid on top of his beautifully toned body.

I stared at him with confusion. "What?" I chuckled lightly.

"Come to Texas with me." He repeated with a gorgeous smile on his face. "We can live on the ranch I grew up on. We can ride horses, sit on the porch and drink beers, I can make you breakfast. You can get out of Charming."

"Where is this coming from?" I asked as my fingers danced on his chest. He just shrugged. "I'll give you an answer if you tell me what made you a felon."

Luke sighed and stared at the ceiling of the Gran Torino. "Oh god. That was so long ago." He chuckled. "I was 19. Basically, I was charged with aggravated assault and spent 9 months in the county prison."

"That's it?" I asked. Luke shot me a not-so-serious glare, to which I giggled. "Yes, I'll go to Texas with you. Let me get my diploma, then we're free, babe." I leaned down and kissed him softly.

The picture I attached is what I imagine the car scene with Luke and Keegan right before they go at it (if ya know what I mean lmao)