Travel || b.s. {ON HOLD}

Eight: Confused

"You can pretend you don't like me, but ---" he whispered behind me.

"I aren't pretending Brad" I replied as I turned around to face him.

"Don't act like you don't like me, ju---"

"What makes you think I like you?" I asked, cutting him off once again.

"It's obvious" He states as he gets pushed by a drunken dancer,falling into me before he stands once again, a few seconds later I was spun around by my arm and was now facing Pippa, who quietly whispered "You okay?"

"Save me" I mouthed.

"Sorry Brad, we have to go find the others, bye" She said, leaning over my shoulder so she was facing him,a fake smile stuck on her face all the while.

"See you later" He said once again spinning me around, which I rolled my eyes to in response.

Pippa gripped onto my arm and led me towards a group of people, I instantly recognized three of them as the other three members of Brad's band. I spotted two girls who were stood along side them, who were later introduced them by Pippa as James and his girlfriend Bell, Tristen and his girlfriend, Scarlet, Connor and his 'friend' , Lauren.

We all began to chat although it quickly turned into mini conversations, but I was stood with my head down looking at my shoes and fiddling with my fingers because Pippa had left soon after she introduced the group, leaving me with nobody to talk to. Every now and then I would contribute to the conversation but I was mostly just left to my own company.

I had been staring at my twiddling thumbs for the last few minutes, thinking about random and irrelevant things, what does my voice sound like to other people? Is it irritating? Is my laugh weird?What does it sound like?

I soon felt very self-conscious and I looked up to see Bell and the other girls,who all had incredibly long hair,which was either dark brown or a perfect ginger colour,which suited Lauren perfectly.They were all also quite tall although it wasn't an intimidating height, and they all towered over my pathetic frame.

I suddenly felt a tap on my shoulder and I slowly turned around, not in the mood for a conversation and even less so when the person I turned to was Brad.

"Hey Brad" I said in a dull tone.

"Heyo" He replied, clearly a lot happier than I was.

"Are you okay?" I asked, surprising myself, although still spoken in a bored tone.

"Erm, yeah" He answered.

"Would you like something?" 

"No, not really"

"Then why are you here?" I snapped.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yes"

"No you're not"

"How do you know and if you already knew the answer why did you ask me?" 

"Whats up?" He quizzed, ignoring my questions.

"Nothing"

"What's up?" He asked once more, clearly not giving up.

"Just feeling a bit rubbish" I replied, not in the mood to go into details about how I all of a sudden feel so down.

"Tell me" He demanded as he grabbed my arm and led me towards the entrance of the party were it was cooler and the music wasn't deafening.

Silence filled the air for a few minutes until I decided that I may as well tell him because he will never let it go.

Let it go,let it gooo ---

"I feel like rubbish because every girl here seems to be perfect that have hair that stays where ever they want it to and have flawless makeup, even though they probably don't need it and --" I rush,not knowing how to put how I feel into words.

"And?" He interrupted my small rant .

"I don't know" I sigh.

"What about that?"

"I wish I was like that" I say, although I only just comes out as a whisper.

"You don't realize" He speaks after a short silence.

"I don't realize what?" I ask, confused.

Before I know what's happening Brad is leaning down, so that we're about the same height and kisses me.The kiss doesn't that all that long but long enough so that he can wrap his arms around my waist and knots his fingers together were they meet at the bottom of my back.

When we both pull away for air I'm more confused than I was before I asked the question, but he rests his forehead against mine and smiles before he whispers.

"You are"

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Writing this chapter killed me.

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This chapters quite short but the next chapter will be a lot longer so.

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