Truth About Love.

Chapter 1

Love.
A simple word, yet many lives have been touched, experienced happiness, felt a tremendous excitement, inspire people, hearts have been wounded, or worst, mentally and emotionally illed.

I've seen all of that. I've seen all kinds of pain and happiness because of love.

Is loving bad?
Yes, if you loved someone too much and not thinking about yourself.

Is loving myself too much is bad?
Yes, we live in this world not only for ourselves. God gave us life to love everyone, which includes the people whom you hate.

What if I am afraid to love again? What if I don't want it anymore?
For now, you don't want it. But there will be a chance that you cannot control the emotional feelings toward someone else. And that can be the person destined for you. The right person God has given to you. The right person who will love and take care of you through the rest of your life.

He hurt me! And I cannot forgive him anymore. He deserves to rot in hell.
Everyone deserves second chance, but not a second chance to hurt you again. A second chance that you will love someone else that will love you trully, or a second chance that he/she change for the betterment of your relationship and for herself/his self.

I've seen most worst cases about love. What happened to them, what they felt. I've seen all the things that I am not aware that those things really exist after I have experienced a tremendous heartbreak.

Heartbreak hurts. Mostly if that person is so precious to you that you've gave everything to him/her. You cannot eat nor sleep properly. You cannot think positive things, crazy thoughts all over your mind, and hope that you too get back together again. Crazy thoughts that you almost forgotten yourself.

I am Elena.
I am not expert in love but I can be a counsel in some way. How?

Well, I'll tell you my story.

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February 14.
(7 years ago)

I am a highschooler, and I am in my 4th year when I said yes to this guy. His name is Jonas. He is a clever boy, with an annoying attitude. But this person can make me smile almost everyday. He throw jokes, corny jokes actually, but I laughed, for real. And i don't know why/how I always buy it.

He's not masculine. He's not that tall, 5'5 of height. That's what you can call 'pwede na', pertaining to his height. He talks a lot. Whenever we're together, he always have stories to tell. About what happened to him yesterday/awhile ago, about his family, about his friends, everything. He doesn't stop. Which sometimes I find it really annoying. But eventually, I'm used to it.

He's jolly in class. He's a swimmer and play chess like me.

He is 16 and I am 15.
In our class, i'm just a simple girl having this 'jeje' life. I always text a lot, and always send group messages or GM with matching signature at the end. I do weird format texts l4Yk +h!$.

That guy is not my type. We have this so-called popular people in our school, and his name is Chuck. He's a basketball player and a swimmer. He's masculine and tall, most likely 6 feet tall. Has a badass haircut that sticks really straight up. But he's kinda a playboy. There's this popular guy too, named Kelvin. They're 'tropa', and they have the same built. He's a basketball player and a Badminton player. He's nicer than Chuck. I've met him, he used to be my date but I guess... I am not his type.

They had several girlfriends which I can't count in my hands. I'm not included. Chuck is my first crush, and yes. My second was Kelvin. Haha. Hey, that's normal! That's only a crush.

Jonas' look is too far from my crushes. So how/why did I say yes to this guy? I find him amusing and I fell for him. He told me that since the day we talked he started courting me and I'm not aware of that. I thought he courted me 5 months ago, but he told me it was 8 months ago. Oh well, doesn't matter.