My Little Angel

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

~Castiel's P.O.V~

I pull the angel blade out of Dean and called for help. Everything was a blur as I sit in the hospital. I didn't even notice that I got moved so I was sitting by Dean's bed or maybe I did that by myself unknowingly. I hear the doctors say that he is in a coma but I'm the one that put Dean in there so it wouldn't hurt him while I pulled out the blade. I don't even know how many hours I've been here but it looks like the sun is going up. I would say that it's the most beautiful thing right now but Dean is here and even tho he is in a coma almost dead he is still better than any sunrise. I hear someone walk in and I have no clue why but I turned to face them. Sam and Gabriel had walked in with something for me.

"Hi Castiel. Dean left this for you - a note. You don't have to read it now but you should take a look at it soon before... you know, him no longer being here." Sam hands me the piece of paper then him and Gabriel leave. Why did he say that Dean's going to die? Doesn't he have hope that his brother will pull through? I give the note a look just to see what his goodbyes would be.

To Castiel,

Cas everything I do I do it for you and please don't forget that. With that said I did this for you, because of you. The past month I've been having the same nightmare where Crowley kills Sam and Gabriel then leaves you till the last. What makes it worse is that I can't save anyone, I can't save you. No matter what I do I always keep on losing you and I can't lose you nor let you get hurt or even killed because of me. It happens to everybody that I'm close to so that's way I'm doing this, I need to stop hurting people I have to.

Sometimes I get lonely and thinking about you helps. Reminding me that there is a person I cherish so very much, always close in spirit even when you're so far away. But sometimes it hurts even more to think of you... your laugh, your touch, and to remember just how much I miss your gentle face, your tender ways, your presence in my life. Cas I need you and this one time that I needed you by my side you were nowhere to be found. Castiel I love you. Always did and alwas will. I know I'm a coward for saying it like this but I didn't want to tell you and lose you Castiel. You're my best friend the one person I could not live without. You make the pain go away but then bring a new one to my heart. I love you and I'm sorry Cas.

Is it possible to love someone too much? If it is, that's how I love you. I guess by that I'm saying, I love you and it hurts. You're miles away, and when I'm lonely and you are all that's on my mind, it hurts. A lot. But I can't take the pain but that doesn't mean I don't love you Castiel.

Well I'm running out of paper. I'm sorry I truly am. I'll miss you, my little angel.

-Dean

I see a stain from Dean's tears on the paper. How can one man lock up so many emotions and pretend he is fine while really he is dying from the inside. I could have helped Dean and now the only thing I can do is take him out of the coma. I remove my fingers away from his face and just sit and stare at Dean's figure. I don't know why, but I'm just reciting the same song over and over again.

~Two damn days later~

I've done nothing but sit, stare and sing for two days. They felt really long but at the same time short, it's like time is messing with me. It's like I'm in my own little world but today that will change as I can hear the smile in the man's sleepy voice.

"Cas?"

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Word Count

Chapter:727

The book so far:7916

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 Hey guys thanks for reading this and look I finally updated. And 152 views thank you so much. I thought no one would read the shit I write. I don't really know what happened to the book mostly cause I don't have a planed out plan for it but it's really sad well the last two chapters were and I'll stop the sadness soon. Damn starting this book I said not to make any really sad depressing stuff and like if you read really close to stuff it's all sad. Especially Dean. Well thanks again for reading and voting.

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