Oh, Ms. Believer

Where We Began✔

"How was it?" my mom asked from the driver side of her Toyota Corolla. I sigh and put my head in my hands rubbing my eyes.

"It was, okay I guess?" I look up and out the window of the vehicle, noticing we were pulling onto the small highway between, well where ever the fuck I was going, and my home.

"Do you maybe wanna get some food somewhere?" My mom asks keeping her eyes on the road occasionally glancing at me without turning her head.

"No. I'm not that hungry." I cringe at my choice of words. Of course I was hungry and even my mom knew that, but I just had no desire to eat. At the moment at least. I could hear her sigh as she kept driving down the highway, only slowing down to exit when the time came.

"Just." she stopped as we pulled up to a red light. She turned to face me "Just tell me if you need anything. Food wise, or just anything in general okay?" She says glancing at the light which was still red.

I nod my head in a quick movement turning to look out the window. I could faintly see my reflection my face was creating in the glass of the car. My freckles were very prominent on my face, and my blue eyes stood out.

This was strange to me, I've never really looked at my reflection this hard. I guess I was just too preoc-

"Cali!" my mom yelled breaking me out of my trance "We're home."

I smile and nod at her grabbing my phone and getting out of the car.

"Sorry if I've been a bitch to you lately." I sigh walking next to my mother towards the porch.

"It's okay Cali I understand. You're not in your best state and I can respect that, I just want you to get better. I don't want my little girl gone." She said her voice cracking. Tears pricked my eyes as we walked in the house.

"I'm sorry." I said not audible to her. I climbed the stairs to my room closing the door behind me. I slid down the door with my head in my hands, yet again, and silently cried.

I didn't mean to hurt anyone, and I didn't want to hurt anyone. I can't help it really.

This is just who I am.

And I hate it.

Happy Halloween bitches.
It is also Frank Iero's birthday, so happy birthday Frank.

I don't know if this story is good, but I wrote it during Science class instead of working on other work or studying.

Have an amazing day. Love you.

(I posted this the day after Halloween fml.)

- C