My shit show of a life

The beginning of healing

I know
I know your name shouldn't still be racing through my head
You left me scarred
Torn and left to stitch myself up
But I still yearn for the way you made me feel
You felt like home
Now I can't even look you in the eyes as we cross paths
I can't just act like we never happened
We were unbreakable
in my point of view we were
Apparently not yours
I hate the other girls more than I hate you
I know you were the one who did this to me
But yet I blame everyone but you
I just want to know if you actually ever cared
If anything was real
I shouldn't be thinking about you
I have someone else to hold my hand now
But I just compare his to yours
Different textures
His lips are warmer than yours
Yours were ice cold
But I still love them better even if they were on another
This is wrong
Nothing feels right anymore now that you're gone
I fell too hard for you
But now I'm with another
He doesn't make me feel as special as you did
But I can adjust
He doesn't smile as bright as the way you did at me
But at least I'm beginning to move on
I finally start to let you go
But then you cross my mind
There we go again
Racing through my head