Arranged To Bieber

chapter 43

Justin's pov

"tell me what you did again?" Ryan's voice came through my ears shocked as I told him what happened this morning in the hospital

"I kissed her ryan, now can you stop bugging me about it please" I told him for the thousand times

"and you just left without saying a word to her. are you out of your mind, you can't just kiss a girl and leave her hanging like that. you have to talk to her" Ryan told me grabbing my arm and ushering me out of the door

"alright fuck man, relax at me. im fucken nervous, I havent felt like this since ...." I couldn't say her name she was only person that I loved the most and now shes dead because of me

"Beth" I heard Ryan whisper her name as I closed my eyes trying to picture her blonde hair and her beautiful hazel eyes and when her body trembled underneath me

as I ignored him, I went to the cemetry knowing her dad and Tina will be there at 6 pm. I got there before she is, just to get my nerves to come down a little

as I saw her walking with her dad by her side and talking to her dead mother. my eyes were kept on her teary face and guilt start to consum my body. I waited for over an hour and they finally finished

I followed her to the car and I finally had the courage to speak up cause everytime I get close to them I stop for a little while until they are far away then I continue

"Mr Brown, can I speak with your daughter for a second please" I told him. as he looked at Tina and she was speechless as I was trying to keep an eye contact with her dad. "Alright 5 minutes and my daughter will be in the car" he told me before leaving us alone

I was nervous as fuck, my eyes keep trailing to her lips, I wanted to kiss her and her words interrupted me " what do you want to talk about? " her voice came out cold

"I'm sorry about ....." I couldn't think while she was licking her lips until her voice spoke up once more "the kiss" I nodded at her. And she started screaming at me "that if the kiss didn't mean anything then why did I do it?" Her broke inside me as she finished her rant and was heading back to the car. I grabbed her wrist and kissed her, I don't know what is wrong with me but I needed her

She backed away, looking in my eyes, "why did you kiss me now Justin?" She told me. I rubbed the back off my head not knowing what to say "I-I don't know" I told her looking at the ground

She backed away a little and the words she spoke made me glance up at her "Justin, if you don't know why you keep doing that, then don't go near me unless you figure out what the hell is going on in your head, cause I had enough of playing your game Justin, I'm tired of all this."

As I saw her disappear into her dad's car , I tugged at the end of my hair in frustration, screaming in the middle of cemetery "I LOVE YOU TINA BROWN. I FUCKEN love you, your driving me crazy" with teary eyes

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"What should I do mom, I don't know, what do I do" as I told mom everything that has happened with me and Tina to my mom who was sitting there listening and registering every single word I said and her biggest shock was when I mentioned that Tina wanted a divorce as soon as possible

"Justin, you have to tell her how you feel, if you don't then she will slip away from you in any second" mom told me as I glared at her in eyes filled with tears and messy hair from the frustration I was going through

"Honey, listen to me, when your dad and I had major fights, he used to always bring me red flowers at the doorstep until I forgave him..it was really nice and I couldn't be mad at him with all these love letters he used to give me" she told as my eyes widened at the idea she just gave me

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