“I have the capacity to rationalize in multiple languages as to why I shouldn't love you...”
I shouldn't love you because we're far apart...
Kyori ga tooku kara, aisuru nante...
I shouldn't love you because we're still complete strangers...
Mada otagai ni shiranu hito dakara, aisuru nante...
I shouldn't love you because we're busy with our individual lives, yet
Bokura wa kobetsu no jinsei ni mada isogashikute, aisuru nante...
What more will you say and use as an excuse?
Why, exactly, are you hesitant to try things beyond your comfort zone, for instance, love?
Is it because you still have personal issues within yourself?
Trust issues? Anxiety?
You don't think that love can help?
Think about it. How long have you been keeping it all to yourself? Since when have you been bottling it in without anyone to open up to? Until when are you going to suffer by yourself?
You don't believe that love can bring ease and comfort?
Having anxiety is a mixture of emotions; it is feeling excited and scared at the same time. It is having strong feelings toward something, and then, feeling nothing about everything after a split second. It is having the excitement to fall in love and the fear of losing it all at once.
“I'm scared too,” you told me.
“But I told myself that if I'm going to love you, I need to be vulnerable, I need to be who I am...”
Showing vulnerability to someone is almost similar to giving them the permission to rip your heart open and hurt you. It's a risk you've got to take or leave.
No matter how much your mind tries to convince you that you can't, you know it in your heart that you can. Remember that the heart gets what it wants.
If you insist on saying that you aren't ready, then when are you going to be? The time is now. There is no perfect time because you have all the time you need, and it's up to you to make it perfect.
There may not be perfect relationships, and there might be some tough times, but they are all relative to love. It's not always going to be easy, but if it's genuine love, it's going to be worthwhile. You need to include the bad parts because they are still part of the story.
Nothing in this world comes easy.
You have to work for it.
It is trial and error, as they say. Unconventional situations may trigger phobias and anxieties; however, with love, everything can be better.
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For You
PoetryThis is a compilation of thoughts put to words. Words that could only describe my emotions. Emotions that were felt. This is for the person who created some ripples in my life. To my crush, my best friend. To the guy I fell in love with and I'm in l...
