The Crazy, Mixed-up Life of Your Not-So-Average Teenage Girl

Thursday Afternoon

I AM SOOOOOOO SORRY FOR NOT UPLOADING SOONER!!!!!!! IVE BEEN TRAVELING FOR THE PAST 5 DAYS AND ALL THE HOTELS WE STAYED AT WE WOULD HAVE TO PAY FOR INTERNET CONNECTION. AGAIN I APOLOGIZE I'M SORRY. LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!

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School was out until tomorrow. Tomorrow was the last day of school.

It was hard for me to believe. Tomorrow would be the last day I would be able to see my friends. And let’s face it I probably won’t ever see them again. I was at the age where my parents thought I would forget about them soon enough but I won’t. I was going to miss all of them. All of them had a special little thing I loved about them.

Karen- our love for tennis

Victoria- her general weirdness

Ethan- I could talk to him about anything

Evan- he was able to make me laugh in my darkest times

Diana- our love for The Hunger Games, Once Upon a Time, and poems

Daisy- our love for The Hunger Games, Once Upon a Time, and poems

Everything about them I loved. They all were more to me than just friends.

They were a part of me. And when I left I would leave a part of me behind with them. But soon enough they would just be words on a page in another chapter of my life.

I was sitting there in my room on my bed listening to music. I always do when I’m sad or mad….. Or happy. Pretty much all the time.

Did I mention I had fallen into depression?

No?

Yeah, well, I had. And let me tell you something.

IT FREAKING SUCKS!!!

I’m really sad all the time now and I pretty much stay mad at the world.

So yeah. Fun right?

Any ways, I recently had downloaded Adam Lambert’s Trespassing. I really like the songs on it so far.

I was laying there when Outlaws of Love came on and when I was listening to the lyrics I just started crying. The lyrics said

Everywhere we go

We’re looking for the sun

Nowhere to grow old

We’re always on the run

That’s how I felt.

We were always moving. I didn’t have any roots anywhere.

I had nowhere to call home.

Nowhere.

Oh, nowhere left to go

Are we getting closer, closer

No, all we know is no

Nights are getting colder, colder

Hey, tears all fall the same

We all feel the rain

We can’t change

Everywhere we go

We’re looking for the sun

Nowhere to grow old

We’re always on the run

They say we’ll rot in hell

Well I don’t think we will

They’ve branded us enough