So it's been a bit since me and him broke up actually quite awhile it was in February and now its November October 17th would've been our one year and guess what... I'm still not over him the memories are always on replay the plans we had for the future come back to haunt me anytime I'm alone I don't stay alone much anymore cause if I do...well...I get depressed...depression has lead me to do other things...and I don't wanna go back to that life so I always have someone with me even if it is only for a few hours that that one person can be around I always have someone around once one leaves another shows up I do anything to get and keep him off my mind even for a few minutes he was my world my everything my life he still is tbh I just ain't with him now and I can't tell him now even tho I really wanna run up to him hug him kiss him and tell him I love him with all I have we made a promise the day we both knew we loved each other that no matter what we would always love each other I kept my end of the promise I wish he kept his cause then maybe just maybe I would have him in my arms tonight instead of in my thoughts and dreams god I miss him he was a dork but it was cute cause he was perfect but I was stupid and let him go and like the dumb ass I was I let him walk out my life I could've got down on my knees and begged and pleaded maybe he would've stayed but I just let him walk away my finally words being I loved him those words are still true and they will be till the day I die and even after I miss him I love him and nothing could change my love for him he is stupid now he does stupid things he hangs out with the wrong people and I can't stop thinking about him and wondering if he is hurt I can't stop loving him I wanna get over him but I'm also waiting on him to come back and I don't think either are happening...
